Asylum
May 5th, 2010, 10:51 AM
so i've been resisting a lot!! i was so close to totally botching up this week on many occasions but i dind't :) this is because of my bet with my friend Nik, if i cut.. .then he will smoek. and vice versa and this is actually working! if i didn't have that extra edge to say... arghh its not just me i'm hurtin... then i would say skrew it! i havne't cut in awhile too, its been... i'd have to look it up exactly, but the longest i've been in ages. this makes me happy and sad because i still want to, but i knwo i shoudln't, not liek i want to keep cutting, just the urges making me want to, and sad that i can't. but my one friend Nik is really hleping me. and i'm very thankful for him.
so for those struggeling it's really determination mind set, and resistence. nd getting rid of temptation. i hoep everyone is doing well :) you are all in my prayers
this is what i'm doing with another friend of mine, for each 30 day period we are celebrating if you don't self harm. however if one of us self harms, the day numbers start over. this celebration means we hang out, we go do somethign fun, we go crazy, maybe bake cookies, it's like a reward.
so for those struggeling it's really determination mind set, and resistence. nd getting rid of temptation. i hoep everyone is doing well :) you are all in my prayers
this is what i'm doing with another friend of mine, for each 30 day period we are celebrating if you don't self harm. however if one of us self harms, the day numbers start over. this celebration means we hang out, we go do somethign fun, we go crazy, maybe bake cookies, it's like a reward.