it's there infront of me.

[Keats]

the blade, it's literally right there.
i want to cut so bad, i want to go deep and just watch it bleed and bleed.
i don't know what to do.
summer is just round the corner, and i'm fucked no-matter what (we have to wear short sleeves at school).
i want to see how deep i can go. i want to satisfy my hunger for it.
i'm lost.

[MadManWithaBox]

If its lying there, tempting you, get rid of it is all I can say.

[Keats]

thats the thing, i don't want to move it.
i want to do it.

[MadManWithaBox]

But you know perfectly well in the end, it won't make you happy. Its short term relief. Get rid of it.

[Keats]

it's been a month, i can't fight it any longer.

[delta]

it's been a month, i can't fight it any longer.You can, just don't give in!

[Amyxoxo]

I don't know if it makes any difference now, however as long as nothing happens, leave it there. If you try to see how long you can stare at it and not cut.
Think of it as a game as satisfying as actually cutting, just a though :) x

[Mike321]

If you've come this far, do you really want to give in, you managed not to cut for a whole month, thats really good.
Can't you find something to keep yourself distracted from the thought, or thinking of it as a game like Amy suggested
Dont give in, its not worth it in the end (believe me, i've been in your posistion serveral times)

[Asylum]

you are setting yourself up for failure hun saying i can't wiat any longer... you can... don't give up.. you must keep fighting, you can do it. there is a light at the end of the tunnel. if you can't move it get up and away from it. your stronger then that. is the new scars worth a few seconds of relief and then back to the same old feelign again, it does nothing... hun its not worth it...

[Keats]

i'm sorry, i gave in.
there was an 'incident' that kinda put me over the edge.

[delta]

i'm sorry, i gave in.
there was an 'incident' that kinda put me over the edge.That doesn't mean you're back to square one. Don't let one slip ruin everything! Keep trying! You can do it!

[Keats]

i can't, had a terrible day today.
looks like it's another set back.

[Keats]

someone help,
i just want to die.
i can't stop thinking about her
i want her.
i need her.
but i can't have her.

[MacMilker]

someone help,
i just want to die.
i can't stop thinking about her
i want her.
i need her.
but i can't have her.

if you die. youll never see her again.

[Keats]

i can't see her anyway.
i love her.
but she doesn't love me.
i can't bear to see her with someone else.
maybe thats a good thing.

[Keats]

see.
there really is no point to it.

[Mike321]

Dont give in to these thoughts, your stronger than that
And there is a point to your life, like 'broken destiny' said if you die you will never see her again.
There was this girl I liked for 6 years and I got rejected twice, I hated seeing her with other people, I was feeling the same way you do.
But if you commit suicide, imagine how that will effect the people around you, the people who love you. It really effects more people than you think, and surely you'd rather have her as a friend than not at all?
Seriously think about this, what your feeling, becuase its really, really not worth it, I've lost too many people that I cared about, don't do it

[delta]

i can't see her anyway.Why not?

[Keats]

because she doesn't want to see me.
just hearing her name makes me break down.
i don't want to live in constant sadness of what could've been with me and her.
i loved her so much.
but she didn't love me.
i would do anything for her.
she doesn't even want to speak to me.
i thought she understood me,
but she gave up on me.

[Keats]

screw it, i give up.
give up on me too.

[Amyxoxo]

I'm sorry darling but I'm going to give it to you straight.
If she is never going to be with you, ever, if you have tried then give up. I know that it is cliché but there are plenty more fish in the sea!
Don't give up on yourself because of one person.
Don't let her ruing her life. That is bad.
Take control of yourself.
Get help.
Find someone new, who wont give up on you.
Luck
Amy x

[Keats]

everyone has already given up on me.
i don't want to find someone new,
i only want her.

[Antonioc]

everyone has already given up on me.
i don't want to find someone new,
i only want her.

Well, if you can`t have her, I`m not trying to be blunt or anything, but just stop. I`ve gone through something extremely similar, and now I look back and think how stupid I was to think I only wanted her. She seemed like the most amazing person of all time at the moment, now, she`s just a tiny grain of sand on the beaches of life... basically, find a different grain. It doesn`t have to be a fast thing, it took me months of cutting, crying and sadness to get over my girl, but hold on through. One day, you`ll find someone better, someone who makes you look back and say ``Did I REALLY feel that way about HER? Wow, I was stupid``.

[Keats]

it's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

[delta]

it's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.I can understand that. Maybe you should try to do something else (not self-harm) to put your mind off her? Listen to some good music? I would suggest anything by Opeth, their music always makes me feel better!

[Keats]

i've tried,
i've been playing my guitar loads, drawing, painting, playing xbox, listening to music, writing music.
but at the end of the day, i still can't take my mind off her.
when i'm drawing, i draw something/someone that reminds me of her,
when i'm writing music/lyrics, they always end up about how much i love her.
nothing seems to take my mind off her.

[CantBeTamed]

Throw The Stuff Away Thats What I Did And WTF You Cant Wear Hoodies At School When Its Warm My School Didnt Care Although My 8th Grade Class Got Hoodies Banned At The Middle School

[Keats]

WTF You Cant Wear Hoodies At School When Its Warm My School Didnt Care Although My 8th Grade Class Got Hoodies Banned At The Middle School

soz i don't understand what you mean here.