I just want to feel safe.

[Aceso]

Hey guys.
I have recently found my depression just getting worse due to a series of problems. I sometimes feel really just so alone or lost and I dont know what to do. Its constant, all the time and often at night aswell. I just want to be happy again, is that too much to ask? :(

[TakeMyHand]

Oh God Hannah, please don't feel this way! :( I'm sorry I haven't been online much the past couple of days, but I'll be on each day when I get home from school for the next few days (4:30pm for me, 9:30pm for you). Please hang in there for me.

[Aspiringanonymous]

Hannah, you know that we are all here for you. :hug3:

I am familiar with that sensation. Like most other powerful mental forces, this is just something that must be resisted through one's inner strength - it will subside in time, provided that you do not allow it the power to successfully direct your actions.

You must recognize that if you deliberately attempt severe harm upon yourself, depending on the action taken, there will be a risk of it accidentally turning into a successful suicide attempt. And that would be very, very unfortunate, no matter how attractive the idea could seem right now.

When you feel your strength waning, remember, many others have been here before. Some hung on through the worst and came out with a renewed courage, while others gave in, sometimes inflicting long-term consequences. It is the nature of destruction to seek to perpetuate itself - if not mentally, then physically as well. You deserve better than that.

Please, talk to someone. Anyone - even on here, if you must. The more you bottle up inside, the greater in intensity this experience will become; it feeds off those uncomfortably suppressed thoughts.

Stay safe. PM me any time.

[SimSailorNick]

I feel this sometimes too. Like i think of the all the times i was lonely and that even makes me more lonely then i start thinking of plans how to not be lonely but they end up being something i can't do. What i do is keep myself occupied. I try to rearrange the stuff in my room and sometimes i have a movie marathon and those always make me feel better. Just find something better to do rather than thinking about how lonely you are. And if it's constant, well there are always new movies or go back to the old ones that are memorable. Good luck! :)