just when you think it's all better...

[1_21Guns]

...you realise it's probably just all a big lie, and before long it's all just going to fall through again.
its just the typical. i can see it coming already. you think everythings in place, then it all just falls apart.
my lifes just a huge jigsaw with a piece thats missing so the whole thing will always get rearranged for fun.
i nearly lost everything over something that doesnt even matter anymore because like everything else. that's just fallen apart too.
so now my whole life is resting on glass that cracked and ready to shatter when theres too much weight set on it.
then when it all shatters the pieces are going to stick in me for anyone to start twisting them because i'll deserve it.
then it'll all be another scar in my memory from when it all fell through once again.
it's just never going to get better, because yeah there might be something to catch me when i fall through it all again, but its always going to be another sheet of glass weaker than the first, one that shatters even more and hurts even more.
just what's the point anymore if all the work you do to put everything back together is just going to fall through again.

[Wtficus]

...you realise it's probably just all a big lie, and before long it's all just going to fall through again.
its just the typical. i can see it coming already. you think everythings in place, then it all just falls apart.
my lifes just a huge jigsaw with a piece thats missing so the whole thing will always get rearranged for fun.
i nearly lost everything over something that doesnt even matter anymore because like everything else. that's just fallen apart too.
so now my whole life is resting on glass that cracked and ready to shatter when theres too much weight set on it.
then when it all shatters the pieces are going to stick in me for anyone to start twisting them because i'll deserve it.
then it'll all be another scar in my memory from when it all fell through once again.
it's just never going to get better, because yeah there might be something to catch me when i fall through it all again, but its always going to be another sheet of glass weaker than the first, one that shatters even more and hurts even more.
just what's the point anymore if all the work you do to put everything back together is just going to fall through again.

that post kind of got really worried. I can't even think of anything to say to that.

[simpleasthat]

I think we all live like this, sure some people have it a LOT worse than others, but life will always contrast majorly from great to terrible, it's just how it is. I can understand where you are coming from, I often find that whenever anything goes well for me, it ends up in pieces, and I'm just hurt again and back to square one. Sure with me it was gaining a girlfriend, then my granddad being hospitalised with cancer and then losing that girlfriend and my best friends, it sent me into depression. But what you have to find is someone who you can always talk to, confide in, trust in. If you always have someone you can turn to then your glass will be reinforced. When I had no one I was lost, cutting and depressed. When I had one person I could always talk to, things gradually got better and I built myself up again. If not someone in person, someone individually on VT or all of us, you can talk here anonymously with staff and members, it's the point of VT. You can message at me to talk to me at any time. Hope things get better and stay that way, but honestly, find someone you can talk to about anything, and things will become easier to cope with.