What Do I Call This?

[ZzKingz]

So I've always been taught to like girls and my dad always brought up the subject of dating with "When You have a girlfriend…"

I've always been into gay porn (bears, if it makes a difference; others are a complete turn off) and I used to be really worried that I might be gay.

The other part is that I am not at all interested in a relationship with the same sex and I am interested in a relationship with women.

Because of this, I am beginning to rule out homosexual as a possibility (since I like women), but I am close to eliminating heterosexuality. I've been considering "coming out" but I don't feel ready as I'm still unsure.

One theory of mine is that I was once really curious, and I would always look at gay porn while masturbating. Eventually I might of began to associate it with sex. But this contradicts popular belief so I doubt it.

I am quite feminine; I straighten my hair, and emotionally feel somewhat like a woman.

What do I call this? Is it a phase? I used to (when I was like 7) look at women on the internet from pure curiosity, but this is another level

[nick]

I would call your sexuality "confused" at the moment. I dont mean that in any derogatory way, just that I really think you should give yourself more time for your hormones to settle before leaping to any conclusions. In the mean time my own suggestion would be not to come out, wait until you are more sure.

[dorito777]

i agree

[Harley Quinn]

You're 14 and most of it, is probably down to your hormones raging. As Nick said, I would also call it "confused" because you say you don't/aren't interested in a relationship with the same sex, this may just make you curious. Watching gay porn doesn't make you gay or anything, just means you like to watch gay porn. I wouldn't come out yet, because you still have plenty of time to figure out your sexuality, and you may not even be gay/bi, you may just be straight but curious.

[BUENA]

It could be curiosity.

I HIGHLY suggest you wait 3 years and then put a label on it

[CuriousDestruction]

couple things here. first, you're 14, don't worry about labels now. wait till your hormones calm down. 2nd, your gender identity and sexual orientation are separate, yet related. if you feel more feminine than masculine, it makes you a feminine guy. if you seriously feel physically and emotionally like a girl you may be trans which is a whole other discussion. next, porn has nothing to do with relationships or even sex. plenty of straight guys watch gay porn. it's just what some prefer. it sounds like you prefer women to men so you may just be curious right now. which would make sense since, like night said, your hormones are raging.

[TheFame]

Oh my god.
Im finally found someone exactly like me!

Especially the feminine part, that was hard to find in other people. Its like im into fashon, im inspired by girl singers, and i straighen my hair, and care for my skin.

And i jo to bears, but i emotionally love women

[PatrickZii]

Well, I imagine the "emotionally liking women" is simply because they are similar in how they think and act as you? lol, I mean, how many "bears" have you ever gotten to know?

Side note, I had to look up "bears" after realizing we weren't talking about zoo animals.