this might seem stupid but...

[georgiamay]

ok, i'm pretty sure this isn't an eating disorder, but i swear it isn't normal :/

so anyways, whenever i eat, i feel guilty. i eat quite a lot, and i dont seem to put on much weight (thank god), but whenever i do eat, i start to feel sick, and i just want to throw it up, but i never do, because i DONT want an eating disorder. i feel like a failure when i eat in between meals, or if i just eat everything on my plate in a meal, i feel like a failure and a pig. i'm glad that i dont seem to put on weight, but it just seems weird that even though i dont like eating, i dont seem to be able to stop eating, because i like eating... does that make any sense to anyone at all?

i wouldn't be surprised if it doesn't :P

[Haven]

Heyheyhey. :)

First off, I didn't think this seemed stupid by any means when I read it, and it actually did make a ton of sense. :P

The one thing which I can definitely relate to is feeling guilty when I eat, but when it comes down to it, we're human aren't we? Which basically means we have to eat whether or not we like it. In order to survive we need the nutrients which come from the food which surrounds us. Sure it might suck to have the feelings and thoughts that we 'may be eating too much', but in all honesty... eating is eating. The only problem I really tend to notice is when we begin eating too much or too little to the point where it becomes a problem (either through weight or other nutritious diseases and issues which tag along with it.)

And from the sounds of it, you've got a really decent metabolism. So why not utilize it and eat what you can now, then fretting over eating 'too much.' :P If you're not gaining any weight, you should seriously be happy. There are people who would kill to have a fast metabolism which would enable them to be able to eat whatever they wanted whenever. Just watch out and make sure it doesn't start slowing down. I mean, we're teenagers (at least i think you are. :D) and around this age we tend to eat more than a normal adult because we're still growing. Our bodies are still changing, our bones are developing, and all of that fun medical stuff.

If you like eating, then by all means go out and eat. You're not a failure at all, and if anyone calls you one, then that's just silly. Perhaps if it's bothering you to an extended amount, you could try changing what you eat to something more healthy for you, but even then the result is all the same (minus the nutritious benefits and all of that.) If you love eating, why stop? No one's going to go "AHA YOU'RE EATING." You're doing a completely normal, understandable thing that everyone does. You're not a pig, you're not disgusting, you're normal. If you're healthy, then you have no reason to worry about your eating habits. :)

Sorry if that was repetitive/confusing. :P