I..Don't Understand..

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

There's A Little Puzzle, In All Of Us.

It seems as of late, I'm living in a fantasy world. I'm daily reading fiction and daydreaming how i would change it. Everything I'm doing I feel like it's not good enough, or it seems like I didn't do it at all. I can feel my self, moving away from my own emotions and misunderstanding other's emotions lately.

My advice seems to be slipping, I feel like I'm becoming useless.

Things I used to have so much fun doing..I want more. I feel so bored with life, it's like nothing is fun anymore. I hate being whining and posting this, but as for right now, I can't think of much else to do.

In the end, I wonder if anything I do makes an impact on anyone..

[Magus]

I don't understand either. But did you know that your presence gives me... a lot of things to me, you know.

I don't know about you, but I am an escapist, an escapee from reality and a dweller of fictional , virtual universe a.k.a Internet. The real world offered me nothing from friendship, brotherhood and in fact nothing at all. The only friends would be my parents.

Other than that, it is people like you that actually -you know-

I took a lot of consideration and I know you people have life, friends, job, school and so on and so forth. Comparably, my life is of no significance to you guys. But that ephemeral, transient moments of interaction between us is a great thing to me and I cherish it dearly.

Some people can't understand how much these forums means to me. They work with their usually trolling. But some people, perhaps unaware are really contributing in making this life a better place.

Even though I do have quite a little information on who you are, but of course it is mutual. But, it is great to have people around us to give us a slight muscular movement on our face to actually express joy for the few time of our life.

That sensation, the same effervescent and constrictive sensation when you feel pain from within, except this one is like... happy.

It is a stage I am going through, and I hope it ends well.

I wish you good-well. Bye for now.

[Inconvenience]

u're 15 only and it makes sense. u're goin through puberty and it causes not only physical but mental changes aswell. it happened the same way with me when i was that age. i seemed to easily dislike things, or just found them boring and all.. well the best thing i'd recomend is to do something valuable like studies, and don't let anything (even the bad mood) take ur time doing nothing or something phony