Breakdown

[Obscene Eyedeas]

so i was heading for a breakdown but hiding it well from most people. family in town meant mom and dad are nicer in public and more violent in private. i tried to say no to them the pain is severe. then just as i thought things couldn't get worse. someone made my feel even worse and tipped me into a breakdown. hurting not only me but my boyfriend. i just can't take it. theres no Way i can climb out of depression this Deep. i feel worthless. the dirt on the grounds worth more. im planning something and no guys i won't stop

[derkderpderp]

ok you seem like your mind has been made up.
However,have you tried venting?i used to get abused quite bad by my parents.
And it was harder than i thought but i reported them,any abuse they give you is pure wrong!
Report them,take your boyfriend with you for moral support-youre going to need it to make sure you dont turn back.
Ok,now about my suggestion of venting-
kick,scream,shout,jump,sing,paint/draw,read,write,whatever just get it out of your system!
One thing id suggest-
write down what you feel on some paper,and keep adding any bad feelings you feel to it.
And then,try to calm down,just try,then read what you have written,(note write just your feelings),and then try to make sense of them,over analyse them,make weird metaphors and analogies.anything to make your feelings seem less controlling and more cotrollable,its difficult im not going to lie,but its worth it in the end-thats a promise!
Because you come out of it stronger,with weird relations to bad feelings that dont make them seem as daunting as they previously were.

Oh and please dont s.h,i know youve made your mind,but at least dont do it too bad?because i know sometimes it feels good,but in the long run it gives more grief to you.
Pm me if you want to talk.

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

Laura, I don't know you that well, but something I've gotten from you is that you're stubborn and strong.
Many here who know you, know that you can get through it, on some level you do to.
If we give up we set an image for others. "He can do what he wants, because it's his right. The choices he make change a 9year old's life"
We have SO much more impact on people then we know, but that also means that the person cares.

Hold your head high, and say "I can get through everything!"
If you need help, I'm usually on. =]

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Im stubborn? how did you know? :P Thing is hun ive stopped fighting im just letting it knock me down, ill get through it but im not fighting for happiness anymore merely just to get by.

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

Im stubborn? how did you know? :P Thing is hun ive stopped fighting im just letting it knock me down, ill get through it but im not fighting for happiness anymore merely just to get by.

"And it knocks you down, just get back up, if it knocks you down."

We can't give up.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

If you want to talk to me more please pm. thanks for caring but really i like being on the ground means you cant fall any further

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Well just as long as your here. I must say, school wouldn't be half as much fun if i couldn't poke you!!! :P ^_^

On a total diff note: you got a bf?!? </3

[Obscene Eyedeas]

you want to talk eva you can pm or msn me! and stop poking me in school. or ill hit you with boyles apparatus