I'm becoming a mess.

[screamtobeheard]

It all started so simply. Normally. I had extra fat. I needed it to be gone. So I'd try to eat less. Okay. That's fine. Until I started eating less and less. And burning more and more. If I miss a work out I freak out and if I eat something bad, I freak out. I only eat because I'm forced. When this all started I was trying to eat less. Now I don't have any desire to eat at all. My best friend is the only one who knows I'm like this and she's worried. I feel bad. But I'll stop when I get rid of the fat that's plaguing me...I think I'll be able to. Sorry that was kind of a rant...

[BeautifulDisaster]

I hope this ranted helped some.

I think you should talk to a professional about this, but that is your choice.

Take care.

[screamtobeheard]

I would, but I can't. I don't have access to a professional because of my parents.

[MELL-AHH-KNEE]

hmmm, well is there anything ther than no desire to eat that would be or could be stopping you from food, like you feel like an out cast compared to others, and i am kinda going through the same thing, i all of a sudden put on heaps of weight and now i am just working to the best of my ability, but its okay to eat food, just start out slow with like soft foods or soup and then work your way up.

[screamtobeheard]

Yeah, I guess...I mean, I don't really feel like I'm part of any group of people or like I matter at all. But it doesn't seem like that's why I'm like this.

[1_21Guns]

Hun, you need to try and figure out why you so badly want to not eat.
You're a human being, and not eating will get you nowhere.
Infact, starving yourself is meerly the quickest and worst way to lose fat.
Eating less to lose weight is fine - as long as your still having a balanced diet.
You've probably just lost your appitite or something.
But you do need to eat again hun.
You do matter, and people do care about you.
Your not an outcast, you just need to be comfortable in your own skin and screw everyone that doesn't like you. That's thier problem, not yours.

Good luck, and be careful.
Feel free to PM me if you wish to talk.

[screamtobeheard]

I've been eating this week. Mainly forcing myself because I have a meet this weekend and I know I'll swim badly if I don't. But I'm hating it, and I'm scared next week I'm going to go back to my routine of eating less and less and exercising more. I don't really know why.

Thanks a lot for your input. (:

[BeautifulDisaster]

Why can't you see professionals because of your parents?

You have a choice to see them, your parents can't stop you.

[screamtobeheard]

I think you have to have a parent fill stuff out when you go to see a professional here.

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

missing workouts and eating an unhealthy snack shouldn't be the end of the world. eat wen you're hungry. don't do what my friend calls grazing :P that's just nibbling anything you find when you're bored.
as for the exercise, start a workout schedule and stick to it. that's just my advice :)
also, i have a bit of a struggle with eating myself, where i'm just not hungry. it's difficult to force yourself to eat something when you don't want food at all, but if you make yourself eat, eat something healthy that will keep you energized and give you what your body needs. peanut butter, toast, bananas, and other things that have enough carbs to hold off hunger. my mom is a physical trainer and has been working in fitness her whole life, so i'm like a health dictionary :P e-mail me if you have any other questions

[screamtobeheard]

That sounds like good advice. Thanks. :)

[Heart of the Sunrise]

Not eating at meals, is eating unhealthily. You need to eat, you need 3 meal a day! If you work out and eat 3 healthy meals a day, you will soon find that you are losing weight at a steady pace.