cant anymore

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i cant deal with it anymore.. this emotional pain, this numbness. everything. i seem to go from one mood to another too fast for me to keep up with, either im angry one minute, upset 5 minutes later, and then mildly happy. then feel nothing..then back to being upset then angry... yeah you get the pic. the urge to cut at the minute is that strong that my hands are starting to shake and im getting restless. i cant deal with it anymore. ive already scratched myself all over and re-opened my cuts to try and stop myself from actually cutting myself buts not working :(

this is another pointless thread again..kinda like my life at the moment...but i dont even know why im posting this.. spose its to keep me occupied for a bit longer so i dont do anything stupid..

[Kaius]

The first thing you need to do is to try and calm yourself down. Take a nice bath or a shower and put a movie on that you enjoy. Try to find an alternative for cutting such as the two things i suggested in another thread, using a red pen to draw lines on your skin to substitute cuts, or place a rubber band on one or each of your wrists and click them against your skin whenever you feel a bad urge to cut. This works 9/10 times, you just have to stick with it. If you need to talk at all feel free to pm or email me at the address in my signature. Good luck.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i actually cant calm down... me posting that on here is my last resort... been tryna fight the urges all day really and they keep gettting worse... the only person that can actually calm me down isnt even fxcking here, not even fxcking spoke to him all day... ive tried the elastic band thing before but it doesnt help... i went to the point of wrapping it around my wrist and keeping it there for hours and flicking it but it doesnt have the same effect. i cant keep on going on like this. i need to stop but im too weak to stop

[Kaius]

Is there any way you can get in contact with this person? Maybe a phone call or a text? It might be a good idea if you went to see someone that might be able to give you some long term help, maybe a school counsellor or your gp may be able to suggest some more options to give you. By making that post you've shown me and yourself that you don't want to be self harming, but you just can't stop it, so maybe the best idea is for some help.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

ive sent him loads of texts today and he's not replied to any of them. i dont want to see anybody.. id ont want to be wasting their time when there are people out there who are far worse off than me... i know they're there to help but i cant, and im not one to open up easily to people.. on here its different cause no one's it me... and i dont actually have any valid reasons to be feeling like this :/

[HeroesAndCons]

Try to call him or lay down and relax