I want to die?

[delta]

About an hour ago it felt like something just fell out of me, and I felt really empty, not real... :confused: I was like a puppet, not wanting anything and just doing what I was told. Luckily my mom had gotten the idea that we should take a walk right before, and I gradually recovered during the walk. I don't think she noticed anything was wrong.

The worst thing is that during this whole experience, I wanted to die. :( And I still do. I have no idea why, it's just like I don't want to live anymore. I've never felt like this before, it's scary! As I said, I have no reason to want to die. I don't see suicide as a "solution", because there is nothing to solve! Apart from my cutting, I don't have any major problems in life, I've never been depressed, nothing big has happened recently - basically, as I said, I have no reason.

And don't worry, I'm not gonna do it. I hope.

[Bougainvillea]

I'm glad you're being reasonable about it.

[nick]

I feel like that sometimes, I guess its not that unusual. But most of the time life is pretty good and I dont want to lose out on it. Glad that you feel confident you wont do anything silly.

[Inconvenience]

well maybe that's just a boredom. try doin something interesting, hang out with friends, let the problems forget. or just go get a GF, trust me it's gonna work ;)

btw if ever get questions, u can pm me anytime :)

[delta]

well maybe that's just a boredom.Boredom doesn't make people want to die. I'm serious about this, it scares me!

I feel like that sometimes, I guess its not that unusual.It's absurd! My life is good, no real problems (except cutting), nothing that would make me want to end it all...

Glad that you feel confident you wont do anything silly.I'm not 100 % confident. That's what scares me.

[screamtobeheard]

I would say try to talk to someone about this. Maybe see a counselor or something, because if there's any doubt in your mind you won't be able to keep yourself alive, something's wrong. It's not worth the risk.

[delta]

It went away after a few cuts. Not the best solution, but it worked. I'm still scared it might come back.

[screamtobeheard]

I still think it would be best to talk to a counselor. But that's a little hypocritical for me to say, and it's your choice. Just try to consider it.

[Charleigh]

trust me on what im about to say and don't get offended, you need help, you definitely need help on how to control how to deal with it. maybe something little is affecting your preset. ever been bullied? drugs? family member passed away? the main thing is you need to try and get to the bottom of why you feel like this. i think you should try get some help, something could be occurring even if it is depression, even when you don't have reasons, it can still be there. i hope i helped and PM me if you ever want to talk :)

[delta]

I told my mom yesterday.

trust me on what im about to say and don't get offended, you need help, you definitely need help on how to control how to deal with it.I know.maybe something little is affecting your preset. ever been bullied?Years ago, and never muchdrugs?Nofamily member passed away?Nothe main thing is you need to try and get to the bottom of why you feel like this.As I said, I have no idea.i think you should try get some help, something could be occurring even if it is depression, even when you don't have reasons, it can still be there. i hope i helped and PM me if you ever want to talk :)I will talk to my GP about it.