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Rooster
July 5th, 2006, 12:59 AM
If this don't fit here, move it.

I just started randomly having flashbacks to my old neighborhood lately. It was a tough street. There was always a good scrap. I was known to be a good fighter. Hell even a great one. But, my stomach still churns everytime I think back. I was well known for never pulling a knife, but using anything I could find to down even the biggest of foes. One day I was hanging out in my basement with a few of my friends, and we were just boxing and shit. I lost that one. We all get off days. But when I lost, the three of 'em started callin' me a panzy and what-not. "O, you gonna cry pussy? You need a tissue?" Back in the day I couldn't always control myself, and I am very sensitive. So I ran into a small storage room like I needed to cry (I was close to it 'cause they were goin' at it non stop for about an hour), and grabbed my weapon of choice. A fold up chair. I charged up to one kid who was laughing the most, and by wielding the chair as a battering ram. I thrust a chair leg into his side. It knocked him out of his seat, and he kealed over crying. Everyone was like "WTF dude. We was only playin'." By the end of the day we were all laughing about it. Then the kid got an x-ray. Turns out I cracked 3 ribs. We apologized and shook on it like 2 years later. My other bad memory was one time I was in the woods behind my house hanging out with my friend Mike (he was present for the previous memory too). Then outta nowhere the local scawny kid Josh came charging towards us. This caught me off guard, and he pushed me aside. I watched in awe as Josh ran strait at Mike, and Mike grabbed the back of Josh's head. Mike through the kid down like a rag doll. Then Josh threw a right cross towards Mike's face. But Mike weaved his head to the left, and grabbed Josh's head, and slammed it on a rock. You ever heard a head crack open? Wish I hadn't. The was blood everywhere, and Josh's dad broke through the tree line. Mike was already crying. "Connor who did this?" Being the honest kid screwed me over again. "Josh attacked Mike sir. Mike was only- He didn't-..." "I'm calling the police!" he picked up Josh and carried his limp body over to the car, and drove him to ER. Mike was needless to say, still crying. He looked at me and said "OMG I'm going to juvie ain't I?" I said, "No, don't be a dumb fuck. You'll be fine." I was lying. Luckilly, as it turned out, no cops came, we're all still friends, and Josh leads a normal life. Still the freakiestthing I ever saw. Just needed to say something, 'cause I ain't said nuttin' 'bout it in a while...

TheWizard
July 10th, 2006, 11:36 AM
Are you a gang member?

serial-thrilla
July 10th, 2006, 01:17 PM
you make me sick, thats disgusting that you would go as low as to use a weapon on your friend, i hope someday someone knocks some sence into you.

northskater110
July 10th, 2006, 01:30 PM
yea, not that great to hit one of ur frinds with a fold-up chair.......
and yea, ive heard a head crack open be4

~grant

northskater110
July 10th, 2006, 01:30 PM
dammit, i double posted this 1............ clicked post twice...

um, i hope ur not in a gang, that would b bad

serial-thrilla
July 10th, 2006, 01:43 PM
well hes clearly not. hes clearly just a little kid who cant control his little temper.

Hyper
July 10th, 2006, 04:37 PM
Hmm right how old are you? I shouldnt judge is this post real or not but..

Controlling your emotions is important.. I use to have serious problems with controlling my emotions.. I got angerd easly so kids would tease me.. But eventualy I got over it, though these days when I get angerd it will go like it went years ago, I'd go berserk ;P

Rooster
July 21st, 2006, 06:07 PM
This was years ago. I'm not as young as I was, and can control my emotions now. O, and I hate that kid. He wasn't really my friend, and I still feel horrible.

Whisper
July 21st, 2006, 06:37 PM
.....you'd do good in the marines or navy seals

Personally I've never laid a hand on a friend
the most i've ever done is rough housing

I've had the crap beatten outta me allot though...

Now it sounds like you grew up in a very rough area
naturally you adapted to survive
you made mistakes
but i bet theres allot of stories you havent told us where your the one being attacked by someone allot bigger

-thinks of something poetic and meaningful to say-.......Lifes a bitch

Now you can't change the past
shit happens
you can only learn from your mistakes
and strive for a better future

I know your not a bad guy
I can tell because your showing signs of remorse and guilt
now in the end
you got lucky
everyone was okay

that being said
I would be mindful of my anger in the future if I was you
That dosent mean bottling it up
rather pick a safe and constructive area to vent
weither its some kind of sport like football, boxing, martial arts or running really fast till all your muscles just burn (i used to do that allot)
pick something that intrests you

~xXx~

Rooster
July 21st, 2006, 06:43 PM
.....you'd do good in the marines or navy seals

Personally I've never laid a hand on a friend
the most i've ever done is rough housing

I've had the crap beatten outta me allot though...

Now it sounds like you grew up in a very rough area
naturally you adapted to survive
you made mistakes
but i bet theres allot of stories you havent told us where your the one being attacked by someone allot bigger

-thinks of something poetic and meaningful to say-.......Lifes a bitch

Now you can't change the past
shit happens
you can only learn from your mistakes
and strive for a better future

I know your not a bad guy
I can tell because your showing signs of remorse and guilt
now in the end
you got lucky
everyone was okay

that being said
I would be mindful of my anger in the future if I was you
That dosent mean bottling it up
rather pick a safe and constructive area to vent
weither its some kind of sport like football, boxing, martial arts w/e

~xXx~

Thank you. That means alot to me. It's actually odd you mention the military, because besides music and all other artforms, it's my favorite hobby in a sense. I come from a family of soldiers. My dad had served in the navy, police, and army reserve in that order. I have full sets of camo, I play airsoft, I have alot of stuff like dead grenades, and so on. Kind off topic but, again thanks.

Rooster
July 21st, 2006, 06:48 PM
O, and more often than not. The fights I was in was kids who had heard about me and wanted to take me down, or old grudge fights. I very rarely chose fists first.

Rooster
July 21st, 2006, 10:27 PM
Ya that stereotype fricken sucks.

serial-thrilla
July 22nd, 2006, 12:49 AM
just cuz you DO fight doesent mean your good at it.