Jealousy...

[Dean 'Lake' Knight]

I have just been mulling over my life, and I have just realised my life, has been entirely formed out of jealousy...

My Sexuality (Bisexual): Because I am fat, and I started to look at the guys and started thinking, wow, I want a body like his, then it grew, and before you know it, I was falling for guys.

My Low Self-Esteem: My self-esteem has been so low, ever since I became fat, and I though about how thin and amazing everyone else's body's were, so whenever I saw someone thin, I thought, ugh they are probably making fun of me, because of I am alot fatter and bigger than them...

My Friends: I have almost no friends left, and it is because I drive them away, but not on purpose, I think, 'they would be so much better without me tieing my down, and that they should have nice, great people as friends instead...

I am sorry about how long this is, but I really hope someone could help me...
x

[penguin13]

I don't know what exactly to say to you; but I think maybe you should talk to someone you trust about your problems. Someone who knows you and can help you trough this difficult period.
Hope all is ok.

[KillerKing]

I am exactly the same, i think i started liking guys because im fat to and i'm thinkin they're so hot and i would love a body like that and if i did i think i would get a girl, lol sad i know. But i don't let it interfere with friends and if i were you i wouldn't let it either. If you wanna change your look then do it, there's nothing stopping you. But maybe if you start to change something you'll feel a lot better. Hope it works out for you cuz im in the same boat here :)