Michaell
April 22nd, 2010, 05:58 PM
okay so im tkaing my prozac again, cuse me and my counselllor were aguring if i should tkae it or not x.x
i stopped last time cause i acutalyl started to feel the affects form the medication and i got like really paranoid and scared to what this feeling my brain means and that feelign in m yrbain means and how it will fuck me over, and what it will take away from me.
it was new,and i wasnt use to it(what me and my school counsellor agreed on by the end), also i was scared of the "unkown" and she couldnt be more right
its 20mg, its small, but thye offered me others which d pretty much the same thing, but i dont like drugs >.<
i was just wondering what will it do to me? im ocd with my thoguhts, i haev generlized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, depression obvs,agrophobic, and ALOT of irrational fears all assoicted with my convosation skilsl and my shitty fuck perosnlity. im toooo aware with what goes in my head where i can feel thigns move and shift. oh and i crash every 1-2 weeks for about 2-5 days.
will it take away things? what would it tke away? what if i become more fake? what can i expect? im really use to be delaing with what i deal with, and its familiar! does it change that? will it change who im? what if it blocks a area to my brain were it restricts flow to another part of my brain that is vital or not so vital but i would need it to contribute to my convosation skills and my perosnlity?
i really odntk now what to exepct GAH just a clue? besides happier, but thats fake happiness from the pill, etc.
i stopped last time cause i acutalyl started to feel the affects form the medication and i got like really paranoid and scared to what this feeling my brain means and that feelign in m yrbain means and how it will fuck me over, and what it will take away from me.
it was new,and i wasnt use to it(what me and my school counsellor agreed on by the end), also i was scared of the "unkown" and she couldnt be more right
its 20mg, its small, but thye offered me others which d pretty much the same thing, but i dont like drugs >.<
i was just wondering what will it do to me? im ocd with my thoguhts, i haev generlized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, depression obvs,agrophobic, and ALOT of irrational fears all assoicted with my convosation skilsl and my shitty fuck perosnlity. im toooo aware with what goes in my head where i can feel thigns move and shift. oh and i crash every 1-2 weeks for about 2-5 days.
will it take away things? what would it tke away? what if i become more fake? what can i expect? im really use to be delaing with what i deal with, and its familiar! does it change that? will it change who im? what if it blocks a area to my brain were it restricts flow to another part of my brain that is vital or not so vital but i would need it to contribute to my convosation skills and my perosnlity?
i really odntk now what to exepct GAH just a clue? besides happier, but thats fake happiness from the pill, etc.