KillerKing
April 22nd, 2010, 12:36 PM
Title make sense as you read on, it's kind of obvious anyway but please read, kinda needing some help.
So like in year 8 (bout 3-4 years ago, in year 11 now), i fell out with my best friend. It was the most stupid mistake i made with him and i know he hated me for it. A told like 2 of his secrets to this one girl i fancied, i know ... stupid. They weren't exactly secrets i think it was just one of those things that came up in a conversation between me and him only and he may of wanted to tell others but he just wasn't ready and was only ready to tell me.. i dunno. Anyway because me and this girl we hanging out with a bunch of people she kinda shouted it out sorta annnnnnndddd next day it was round the whole school. He didn't say anything to me about it but i could tell he was angry with me, like he would tell other people what i thought of them after me and him having conversations about them and then they would get a bit pissed off with me but i knew i deserved it. Anyway to cut the rest short, one day i went to talk to him and he just said i aint your friend...
I ain't spoke to him up to this day apart from one time on xbox like last year, but that was on xbox. I never took up the courage to apologise to him and our friendship is long gone now, me and him have kind of gone different ways soo it just wouldn't be the same. It felt good to get that off my chest :)
But the main reason/problem im posting this is because i no longer have a best friend, i have one but she's a girl and pretty much 90% of my friends are girls because im really camp so naturally girls and I get on really well together but, having girl friends ain't the same as one really good guy friend who's always got ya back. It's just not the same and I think the reason I've kept so many things to myself and dont tell them to my current best friend (the girl) is becuase it really aint the same because she sees thing differently being the opposite sex. I'm just really stuck now people, i really need someone i can count on but.. there's no one so just what do i do???
So like in year 8 (bout 3-4 years ago, in year 11 now), i fell out with my best friend. It was the most stupid mistake i made with him and i know he hated me for it. A told like 2 of his secrets to this one girl i fancied, i know ... stupid. They weren't exactly secrets i think it was just one of those things that came up in a conversation between me and him only and he may of wanted to tell others but he just wasn't ready and was only ready to tell me.. i dunno. Anyway because me and this girl we hanging out with a bunch of people she kinda shouted it out sorta annnnnnndddd next day it was round the whole school. He didn't say anything to me about it but i could tell he was angry with me, like he would tell other people what i thought of them after me and him having conversations about them and then they would get a bit pissed off with me but i knew i deserved it. Anyway to cut the rest short, one day i went to talk to him and he just said i aint your friend...
I ain't spoke to him up to this day apart from one time on xbox like last year, but that was on xbox. I never took up the courage to apologise to him and our friendship is long gone now, me and him have kind of gone different ways soo it just wouldn't be the same. It felt good to get that off my chest :)
But the main reason/problem im posting this is because i no longer have a best friend, i have one but she's a girl and pretty much 90% of my friends are girls because im really camp so naturally girls and I get on really well together but, having girl friends ain't the same as one really good guy friend who's always got ya back. It's just not the same and I think the reason I've kept so many things to myself and dont tell them to my current best friend (the girl) is becuase it really aint the same because she sees thing differently being the opposite sex. I'm just really stuck now people, i really need someone i can count on but.. there's no one so just what do i do???