addicted for years

[Loocsinatas]

Hey. My name is Ian.
I haven't even cut or burned in about a year and a half, but I still get the urges almost daily. Every urge feels like its the last one I can handle before I start again.

I started 4 years ago, in 8th grade. I stopped, and started again.
After starting again it became much worse, sometimes doing it multiple times per day. I have many thick scars on my shoulder/bicep area, and I hate having to hide them from everyone.
My mom just recently discovered my scars, due to a tip from my ex-girlfriend. She wants to send me to a psychiatrist, which I'm against.

A lot of people are confused as to why I would start cutting. My answer, "I just like the feeling", rarely satisfies them. But its the truth.

Is there anyway to make the urges stop coming? I've tried the rubber band thing, and a few other tricks, but none of them could suffice.
I'm just about at the point where I'd rather start cutting again then dealing with always wanting to.

[HeroesAndCons]

aw dont give up i knw u can do it be strong

[LoveMe_HateMe]

dont give in to it now hun, not after so long of going without it. i'm not sure what to say to help you. but i found out this mornign that one of my friends used to do it and he went to see a therapist and it actually helped him stop... i know you said your against the idea. maybe it'll help, when you have the urges, to write down your thoughts/feelings down somewhere...i've not actually tried it when i have the urges but it might help :) i know it helps me when i have too much to think about.

sorry if this doesnt actually help you at all :/

[Loocsinatas]

Thanks guys..
I just figured after so long the urges would stop.
I would go to a therapist if my family wasn't so broke.. Lol our house is getting foreclosed, and I'm not about to spend what little we have on therapy.

[Mike321]

Stay strong!, I cut for 4 years on and off.
Try and keep your mind off it, try and keep yourself busy, I know its not easy the urges can be very strong
Good luck