mdawg27
April 21st, 2010, 04:22 PM
I had a post yesterday and I didnt add all of the problems i've been having to it. For about two years now I have been feeling really weird and just doing really dumb things. I think it all started when my bestfriends dad passed away and he had to move away to Arizona. I just havn't been myself. I do really dumb things like things that any person should know automatically. When I talk I usually mess up my words a lot and say the wrong thing, or my words dont come out right. I've also been dealing with a lot of problems with my ears that the doctors can't seem to find a problem with. I have apulsating sound in my right ear and a really weird hallow feeling when I talk. I thought I had a patulous eustachian tube, but the docotr told me I don't, that there is nothing wrong with my ears and that it is all in my head. I've also been having a hard time enjoying anything this past about a year no matter what I do I can't have as much fun as I used to have. I've had a lot of bad relationships that girls I really like broke up with me and I took them very hard which I thought that might have a tole on how i'm feeling. Theres been people that have passed away in my family the past couple years and I show no emotion towards it but some random times like if I dont get enough sleep the littlest things will upset me and i'll cry. I'm not exactly sure whats wrong with me I just don't feel like myself and im looking for some answers. I also have trouble concetarting and get confused extremely easily. I can't listen to two people at once or it confuses me and I used to be able to do that. Last year I used to be able to text and talk to my friends all the time. This year I have less friends and don't text or talk to anyone very much except for my girlfriend. All I really want to do lately is lay around and do nothing but relax. It's really hard for me to do that because i'm 16 i'm in wrestling, I have hard classes, I go to the gym a lot, I just have no time for that. I just don't understand how i was able to do all those things a year ago but I can't now. i just would love to be myself again..