i cant

[LoveMe_HateMe]

fxck major bad urge to cut D: dont want to do it but i have to :( i need to feel something other than this. this emptiness. i'm not strong enough to stop. everyone but one person seems to believe me and only sees the surface. the lie. the fake me. the happy me. he can only see past it cause he actually looks at me closely. he seems to be the only one that carse at the moment and it kills me inside that im not strong enough to even tell him let alone stop. he learnt not to try to get me to talk when i start crying, then he tells me stuff like 'there's no need to be crying your with your boyfriend who loves you alot and you mean the world to him' thats ment to help isnt it? it doesnt, it makes me feel even guiltier about not telling him. :( he's the one person i trust the most in my life and yet, he has to put up with me crying everytime i see him and me not him whats up... i'm actually scared that he's gonna break up with me cause of it. im a failure, a dissapointment to everyone i know. including myself.

[delta]

Stay strong, you can! Having one person who can see you is better than having none!

...sorry I can't be of more help...

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i cant, i'm really not strong enough, i feel like im falling to pieces...all my insecruites and shit that i thought id buried somewhere are rushing back. im not strong enough :mad: :( the only person that i need...to calm me down isnt even here... i have to.. i cant not do it

(edit: but like you just said to me: Just the fact that you even try is encouraging! Thank you! :))

[HeroesAndCons]

dont give up

[LoveMe_HateMe]

im not strong enough but hey.

btw awesome lyrics you got there by an even awesomer band :P

[Aceso]

Hello honey,
Im sure you ARE strong, but just havnt found that out yet!
Heres a idea if you do self harm

Gradually, imagine a box around your body, and gradually make your cuts smaller and as the cuts get smaller you can make the box smaller. Eventually there should only be a small part of body to go to if you need to cut :)