I don't know what happened.

[and_he_calls_me_lynn]

I was hospitalized a few months back, and they kept asking me if I'd ever been abused. I told them that I didn't remember that happening, and I was pretty sure that's something I would remember. The idea that I could have blocked a memory out was discussed.

After I had been home for a while, I started to realize that there are a lot of things that I have blocked out. I've been trying to remember parts of my past, but it has been difficult. There is a very vauge memory from when I was a child that has been hidden in the back of my mind. Over the years the memory has popped into my head, but I've just tried to ignore it.

I don't remember much, but I remember something about being in someone elses house when I was a kid, and I remember something happening that would definitally count as abuse, but I don't know who could have done that, or even where.

The memory is from so long ago, and it's such a vauge memory that I'm not even sure if it really happened. I'm just not sure what to do about the situation. I feel like I need to know what happened, but I don't know how to figure it out, or if I should even talk to anyone that isn't from the computer about it. If I said something and it turns out that it was from a very bad dream, I would feel like an idiot. Does anyone have any advice about what I should do about this?

Sorry that was such a long post.

[Kaius]

To be honest, i think the best thing you can do is to see someone that may be able to help you piece this together. A counsellor perhaps. Is there anyway you'd be able to do this?

[Nickk XD]

A hypnotist would be the best route.

When you "black out" you do not have memories...at all. You cannot regain "blacked out" memories. Like if you're too drunk or get drugged or something...you cannot remember those.

Sometimes, the body has a way of forgetting things. If you had a horrible memory that you would prefer not to remember, it is possible that you made yourself forget about it.

The hospital probably did some tests to see if you were abused...were they referring to sexual abuse?

[and_he_calls_me_lynn]

I talked to my counselor earlier today, but I didn't tell her about that specific memory because I've still been trying to figure out what is going on with my mind. I don't see her again for another month.

I was actually hospitalized for mental health resons, and it was years later. They just asked about abuse in general, but this would be about sexual abuse.

[BUENA]

I don't think anyone here can diagnose you. The best thing is to find someone who is trained to help you piece everything together.

[1_21Guns]

I have the same problem, i have no idea if i was abused or not as a smaller child, as i have very little memory of my childhood.
best thing you can do is as everyones said, seek proffesional help. because its better to look like a fool if its a dream, than for it to mess you up for the rest of your life wondering if it is or it isnt just a dream.

[Hanyo]

Good call Natalie.

[BlackBetty]

Go get professional help. There isn't too much other stuff you can do, except see a professional.

When you block out something, it is hard to remember it, without a hypnosist.

[Dark Vamp]

Repressed memories from abuse is common.

Were the docs asking because it was part of the paperwork that they had to ask or were they suspicious you had been abused?

Sometimes what hurts us is kept out of our awareness in an attempt at keeping our illusion that everything is ok.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

its most likely PTSD Post Trautic Stress Disorder- i have it its when ur mind blocks out horrible memories and they slowly come back with in time. Sometimes hard, other times slowly and confusing, mine felt like a dream, still do, but the feeling is real enough. I go to therapists, EMDR doctors who help me control my flashbacks and make it so i think about them logically, or with less fear and emotion. So they do just become a faint memory.