Asylum
April 19th, 2010, 08:33 AM
so... this is basically a rant, but also want to see if anyone else's parents do this...
so my parents don't allow me to show emotion. when they yell, or scream, or something is bothering me non related to them, i can't show emotion unless someone dies, then i can cry... but as far far everything else goes i get yelled for it. i can't get angry when i'm getting yelled at for nothing. my dad he will scream, get in my face, but i just have to stand there... i can't say dad stop it... or defend myself (because thats "back talk") or it will get worse... this means i have to supress everything... my dad he gets upset, then literally two minutes latter after he flips out, he wants a hug, everything is normal... it's weird... I don't get space or anythign after he flips out, and of course if someone screamed at you or hurt you emotionally you don't want to be around them…. You want away from them… I try to explain this to my dad, but no…. I don't get space… So I can't cry or act angry.. I have to hold it in like everything is fine and dandy.. it's so frustrating.. because by the time i can feel anything... it's upressed and i won't bring it up again... i can't even disagree on a relgualr topic with them.. like if they thought the color blue was the best color in the world, i couldn't say i think purple is the best color becase... list reasons... no otherwis i get screamed at, how can you go against us? do you ahte us? this is jsut because your a rebelious teen!! blah...blah...blah.. sierously.. .like i hate it, i cna't even have an opinion, then when i say so i can't have an opinion, i get cursed at shut up, stop bback talking and being disrespectful.. i mean thye have gotten at least a little more tollerable... i'm allowed to talk to adults, about 2 years ago, we went' out with my mom's friends... and my sister was firends with moms friends daughter, her father was talking to me, becuase i had no one else to talk to... i get home and i get yelled at by dad, why were you talking to Him?!?! He is an adult you are a child! Stay out of adult conversations! But he started conversation with me… I don't care! I didn't want to be rude. .. I'm sorry for responding to an adult? Not like anyoen else was talking to me… I was the only one not talking, because no one close to my age was there… and you still odn't apologize?!! I odn't think I need to, I idnd't do anything wrong… it's all ridiculous… I knew this man for about 3 years they were like family to us, we saw them practically every weekend, my sister who is 6 years younger then me is allowed to tlak and joke with him, but I can't talk ot him at all? This type of things get me annoyed….
so i can talk to adults i guess... i'm nto sure... but i do respond to them now, but i won't initiate conversation while dad is around...
so my parents don't allow me to show emotion. when they yell, or scream, or something is bothering me non related to them, i can't show emotion unless someone dies, then i can cry... but as far far everything else goes i get yelled for it. i can't get angry when i'm getting yelled at for nothing. my dad he will scream, get in my face, but i just have to stand there... i can't say dad stop it... or defend myself (because thats "back talk") or it will get worse... this means i have to supress everything... my dad he gets upset, then literally two minutes latter after he flips out, he wants a hug, everything is normal... it's weird... I don't get space or anythign after he flips out, and of course if someone screamed at you or hurt you emotionally you don't want to be around them…. You want away from them… I try to explain this to my dad, but no…. I don't get space… So I can't cry or act angry.. I have to hold it in like everything is fine and dandy.. it's so frustrating.. because by the time i can feel anything... it's upressed and i won't bring it up again... i can't even disagree on a relgualr topic with them.. like if they thought the color blue was the best color in the world, i couldn't say i think purple is the best color becase... list reasons... no otherwis i get screamed at, how can you go against us? do you ahte us? this is jsut because your a rebelious teen!! blah...blah...blah.. sierously.. .like i hate it, i cna't even have an opinion, then when i say so i can't have an opinion, i get cursed at shut up, stop bback talking and being disrespectful.. i mean thye have gotten at least a little more tollerable... i'm allowed to talk to adults, about 2 years ago, we went' out with my mom's friends... and my sister was firends with moms friends daughter, her father was talking to me, becuase i had no one else to talk to... i get home and i get yelled at by dad, why were you talking to Him?!?! He is an adult you are a child! Stay out of adult conversations! But he started conversation with me… I don't care! I didn't want to be rude. .. I'm sorry for responding to an adult? Not like anyoen else was talking to me… I was the only one not talking, because no one close to my age was there… and you still odn't apologize?!! I odn't think I need to, I idnd't do anything wrong… it's all ridiculous… I knew this man for about 3 years they were like family to us, we saw them practically every weekend, my sister who is 6 years younger then me is allowed to tlak and joke with him, but I can't talk ot him at all? This type of things get me annoyed….
so i can talk to adults i guess... i'm nto sure... but i do respond to them now, but i won't initiate conversation while dad is around...