help? is this depression or me reading too much into things?

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i dont know if this is the right place to put this.

i'm not the type that normally opens up to people...and at the minute i dont know who to turn to, i dont to worry my friends/boyfriend/parents etc but latley i've been feeling majorly low, and one minute i can be really happy, and the next i can be close to tears...sometimes it just comes on its own, sometimes its when someone says something. ive noticed that, no matter how good my day is, when im at home in my room after 7-8ish i get in a really bad mood, and normally end up crying. and i think about bad shit like my boyfriend breaking up with me for various reasons and other things. and at times ive cut myself to try and deal with everything im feeling but it just doenst work. and for the past couple of weeks/months i get really angry/upset by the slightest thing that people do. and im always worrying about people leaving me...well worrying in general. i dont know if somethings up with me or if its something like my hormones going all over the place :/. also the only time that i feel at home and "happy" is when im with my boyfriend at his house... :/

and, i was putting some depressing tweets on my twitter and my friend ask what was wrong and after a bit they said youve got nothing to depressed about and youve got great friends and boyf' and i know all that is true but when i feel low it just doesnt seem to be enough. :(
can someone help? ive been reading up on depression and bi polar dissorder and stuff, and some of the symptoms fit how im feeling...:/

:( :what:

[Music.]

perhaps it is hormones, im not quite sure. self harm is never a way to deal with depression. many of my friends cut themselves and it isnt pretty. If your depression gets worse than maybe you should talk to your parents or doctor. sorry that i cant be more helpful

[LoveMe_HateMe]

i know cuttings not the way to deal with it, but sometimes i just have to :/ and okay, i'll keep it in mind.

thank you :)

[Kelsie]

yeah i have cut in the past too, so your not alone. um and whether or not you have depression or not, i'm not sure. talking to a doctor or a therapist will help. im actually pondering whether or not i have depression myself so i cant give a good answer... umm try meditation... it could help with your feelings and calm you down. also it will give you time to reflect on your life and what has happened to you. oh and please do your best to stop cutting. i know sometimes it feels like it helps, but it really doesnt. try to find a healthier alternative. hope this helps :)

[1_21Guns]

sometimes reading up on symptoms can cause more problems than its worth, because you start to label yourself with things and start getting symptoms you werent before because you know thier a part of something you might have. but yeah, maybe it is your hormones or something, if it really is troubling you that much, see your doctor or talk to a friend. people sometimes get depressed for no apparant reason, and like you know, cutting isn't the way to deal with it, if anything it will just make you feel worse. i'm sure you'll feel better sooner or later hun :)