Not really sure whats wrong

[theguy5457]

I often feel nervous when I'm not in control of a situation, or someone I really trust is. People often reach out to me to go do things, but I feel like I'd rather not go most of the time. Sometimes I will get very nervous before talking in front of people. But the thing is this all happens when I feel vulnerable, when I'm seen as a lower person in the group. If I'm the one leading or in control I'm invincible, and none of this happens to me, but if I'm not, I can be a wreck. I don't see myself as depressed, but i thought this was the best area to post it.

Sorry its kind of hard to put it into words

Thanks in advance

[Kaius]

I completely understand where you're coming from with this. This is a problem I find myself dealing with nearly every day. It gets in the way of a social life I could have but don't have and affects my judgement on a lot of things. I find I need a plan or a routine to stick to, otherwise like you, im a wreck. For me, this is down to my Aspergers. I have a type called SPD, Or semantic pragmatic disorder. I go for monthly counselling for this and it helps me alot of the time to deal with things that are out of my control. Is there anyway you can get in touch with someone you can trust and have a talk with them about how you're feeling? Maybe a parent, doctor, teacher or a school counsellor. If you need to talk to someone that has a bit of an idea how you feel, feel free to pm me at any time you need to, I don't mind.