AGGGHHH im so confused :(

[Dunce]

Hey there.... hehe that dancing smilie is pretty awesome right?:yeah::yeah::yeah:

OK down to the point. I'll start from the beginning. I'm 16. I was always straight. I never went a day without seeing a boy that made my heart flutter and if it wasnt for my young age I would say that I have fallen in love at least twice. I really didnt understand how in the world guys were into girls. I was positive that if I was born a boy I would still be into boys.

About one or two years ago though i felt myself being less and less into guys. I felt really depressed about it. All through my life I thought depression was just constant sadness, so I couldnt figure out what this feeling of confusion, dullness and hopelessness was. I thought I was going mad at first, probably because I had a traumatic experience a while before and was having panic attacks almost everyday along with depression. I thought that my decline in, well, straightness was just a symptom of whatever was wrong with me. Then, I realised that what I was going through was depression, but i still thought that not liking guys was down to the depression.
Only a few weeks ago I finally admitted to myself that my only problem was that I was starting to be attracted to girls. Its really awkward and I'm really not comfortable with it. I have no problem with gay people, I used to be so pro-gays but ever since I started to think I might be one its a different story.

I just find myself not fancying boys anymore. I still look at them, think they are hot or cute or funny but I dont fancy them. And when I look at girls I think whoever I am looking at is beautiful and I just want to be around them. Now girls make my heart flutter.
I dont mind gays but I just am really desperate because all I have ever wanted out of life was to get married to the right man, and have a family. I dont want to have to adopt or get someone elses sperm put in me artificially...
I have talked about it on the net once before but didnt get much responses, they said that loads of teenagers go through it.
I dont want to talk to my parents about it because I am not very open in that way with them, plus my grandad is very sick and I dont want to make everything be about me.

Oh, also, I go to an all girls school, not by choice though, but im freaking out because im getting a little to comfortable there LOL.

I've read that urges we get can be for both sexes, I guess I just want to know, does this sound like just urges to you? Does this sound like it may pass?
If I am gay then I will deal with it, but I will really not be happy, its just not.. well, me. I'm just hoping that what im experiencing isnt the final say in my sexuality :(

[Hyiirocks]

It all depends on how you feel nobody can ever tell you what is right and what is wrong. If you feel that you like one gender more than the other then go for that, I would just call it curiosity. Sorry for any misspells I'm on my iPod touch.

[Brayden]

We can't put a label on it for you, and neither should you. You're a teenager, and thus prone to hormonal moods, occasional 'swings' in orientation or 'curiosity' aren't unheard of at all. Be concerned with having fun and enjoying life.

If it will ease your concerns, I can say that since you find your attraction to other girls distasteful, it's possible that what you're going through is just a phase. Conversely you could also be in denial, though.

[The Harlequin]

It's normal that you feel as though a massive door has been closed to you, I mean when you first realise that there's a chance you might not have kids... That's really difficult to deal with, but remember: there are thousands of people all over the world who have to face the same truth,

From what you're saying it sounds as though you are probably a lesbian, and being at an all girl's school is a problem (I moved from an all boy's school before I realised I was bi, so I got lucky) but High School doesn't last forever, so just hang in there (Y) if you do tell someone be very careful who you choose to tell, because you can't un-tell them

Most importantly of all, don't set yourself up for misery. If you woke up every morning next to someone who makes your heart race, isn't that more important than having biological kids with a man you don't really love?

This isn't the end of your straightness,
It's the beginning of your happiness,

Embrace it (:^,