Seth48
April 14th, 2010, 07:58 PM
I'm not sure if this is the right place to do this, but I might as well.
First off I would like to make the point that MIDDLE SCHOOL f*cking sucks.
So, the current state of my mind can only be evaluated if i explain the things i have happening to me.
There are a couple of characters here, Namely Reed, Kaili, Me (Ethan), and Taylor.
My school year was perfect until Reed met Taylor. I had no girlfriend but I didn't really care. So fine and good up to Halloween, over the summer I had been in a brutal breakup with a person who actually uses this site. (Who i would desperately like to talk to, be she seems to refuse =/) Now, around this time, I had thrown myself into a mad haze of love for this girl Taylor, she was my best friend, and I loved her to death... So Reed met Taylor, and its all fine and good, they start texting eachother, and that ruins my ability to keep a conversation with her over the phone, but i deal with it. Hell, Reed was my best guy friend, and Taylor was my best female friend. Kaili, was Taylors friend and i barely knew her, but I knew she existed, and that she was okay. So it gets closer to christmas, and I start to get worried... i think "Reed will take Taylor from me... I know it..." I continue to hang with Taylor for the next couple of days, but Reed seems to enjoy making it known that he has superior ability of getting close to Taylor, over me. So fine and good, only slightly worried. Well then it gets the night of christmas, Me and Taylor go to Reed's house for a Christmas party. Now, Taylor wont except my friendly hugs for some reason, and i start to worry alot... Reeds friend Nathan leaves and me, Reed, and Taylor are stuck all together. He decides to sit on the couch with his arm around her, as a sort of joke (Sick one in my oppinion) because she wont give me any hugs. At this point im hurt... I start to ache, and my eyes tear up.. I lay on Reeds couch with a coat over my head, and no power on my phone... I prevent myself from crying for the hour and a half that i sit there. Later that night, they got together. The next week of my life, was spent, crying myself to sleep, plotting suicide, and hating every fucking ounce of both of them...
Reed knew i loved her.
A few weeks later i got over it, but i never have completely. So at this point i began hanging out with Kaili, who i ended up liking alot... but lo and behold she liked this guy named Daniel. Whatever. Daniel was a jerk to alot of people, and was very antisocial. That whole situation ensude, and all my friends turned against me... then it turned into me and taylor VS. Kaili, and Daniel. I cried, for weeks.
So The current situation, Reed, who used to be my friend, is now completely an asshole. Hes a total fucking jerk to me. Taylor says she wont have sex, but me and kaili, believe that Reed will talk her into it. Im falling in love with kaili, but shes with Daniel, who she is falling out of love with, after their first breakup. I found my old friend on facebook, and shes having a hard time with life, which is ruining me because i cant be with her. My ex girlfriend wont accept my apologies. And I have so much sexual tension built up...
Anyone have a way to help me cope through this shit? i want a girl so bad but i cant seem to get one, even though I'm as nice as possible... and i feel like the only person without one...
Again i dont know if this is the right place to post this... but yeah... if anyone has some way to help me cope, or advice on ANYTHING.. please post... :(
First off I would like to make the point that MIDDLE SCHOOL f*cking sucks.
So, the current state of my mind can only be evaluated if i explain the things i have happening to me.
There are a couple of characters here, Namely Reed, Kaili, Me (Ethan), and Taylor.
My school year was perfect until Reed met Taylor. I had no girlfriend but I didn't really care. So fine and good up to Halloween, over the summer I had been in a brutal breakup with a person who actually uses this site. (Who i would desperately like to talk to, be she seems to refuse =/) Now, around this time, I had thrown myself into a mad haze of love for this girl Taylor, she was my best friend, and I loved her to death... So Reed met Taylor, and its all fine and good, they start texting eachother, and that ruins my ability to keep a conversation with her over the phone, but i deal with it. Hell, Reed was my best guy friend, and Taylor was my best female friend. Kaili, was Taylors friend and i barely knew her, but I knew she existed, and that she was okay. So it gets closer to christmas, and I start to get worried... i think "Reed will take Taylor from me... I know it..." I continue to hang with Taylor for the next couple of days, but Reed seems to enjoy making it known that he has superior ability of getting close to Taylor, over me. So fine and good, only slightly worried. Well then it gets the night of christmas, Me and Taylor go to Reed's house for a Christmas party. Now, Taylor wont except my friendly hugs for some reason, and i start to worry alot... Reeds friend Nathan leaves and me, Reed, and Taylor are stuck all together. He decides to sit on the couch with his arm around her, as a sort of joke (Sick one in my oppinion) because she wont give me any hugs. At this point im hurt... I start to ache, and my eyes tear up.. I lay on Reeds couch with a coat over my head, and no power on my phone... I prevent myself from crying for the hour and a half that i sit there. Later that night, they got together. The next week of my life, was spent, crying myself to sleep, plotting suicide, and hating every fucking ounce of both of them...
Reed knew i loved her.
A few weeks later i got over it, but i never have completely. So at this point i began hanging out with Kaili, who i ended up liking alot... but lo and behold she liked this guy named Daniel. Whatever. Daniel was a jerk to alot of people, and was very antisocial. That whole situation ensude, and all my friends turned against me... then it turned into me and taylor VS. Kaili, and Daniel. I cried, for weeks.
So The current situation, Reed, who used to be my friend, is now completely an asshole. Hes a total fucking jerk to me. Taylor says she wont have sex, but me and kaili, believe that Reed will talk her into it. Im falling in love with kaili, but shes with Daniel, who she is falling out of love with, after their first breakup. I found my old friend on facebook, and shes having a hard time with life, which is ruining me because i cant be with her. My ex girlfriend wont accept my apologies. And I have so much sexual tension built up...
Anyone have a way to help me cope through this shit? i want a girl so bad but i cant seem to get one, even though I'm as nice as possible... and i feel like the only person without one...
Again i dont know if this is the right place to post this... but yeah... if anyone has some way to help me cope, or advice on ANYTHING.. please post... :(