here i stand and fall

[Asylum]

here i stand all alone
ready to fall once more
ready to bleed once again
wishing to stop the pain

here i stand in the dark
feeling broken
shaking, i'm so cold.
full of sadness
full of hate

i know what to do
just take the knife against my skin
and everythign will be ok
empty handed searching in the dark
for something that will make things better

razors razors on the wall,
you will let me fall
fall so fast in the dark
you are my weakness

screaming, bleeding
can't fight this feeling
just want to be ok
just want the relief

red rubies drip down my arm
i miss this feeling
the want to keep bleeding
it will never be enough

never enough to silence the pain
anger anguish i throw my friend accross the room
and sit in silence
disappointed full of regret
my wrists drip regret

there is nothign more but silence and regret
my friend only holds lies and decete.
lies of peace from the pain
but still i continue to use my friend

my friend chased silver
stained red shimmering in the dark
in it's reflection a monster is it's beholder
wishing for more pain.
wishing for an end.. for everythign to be ok
nothing will ever be ok...