long time no see

[dying lullaby]

so i havent been here in a long time...over the past few months my computer broke so i had little to no contact with anyone who understands this stuff, my friends dont understand any more, i've been popping pills again - try like 10 sleeping pills and a box of NyQuill - which didnt seem to do anything major.
i guess why im posting again is just to see if anyone understands any more. because eventhough i feel more intouch with myself i still dont understand this stuff and it just hurts to think about it all. im going to stop rambling now.

[Waiting]

Bri,
you know i'll always love and miss you
and i guess niether of us are doign too good
so im going to tell you exactly the same thing as i was told today
from any bad situation, always list 5 good things that have come out of it
even if they arn't true
just lsit 5 goodthings
and you'll maybe feel better :P
Love you soo much
Patch
xxx

[-Silence]

I miss you Bri and I'm so sorry things aern't going well.

Please, explain - if you have the time.

Miss you.

:hug:

Love
-Heather