Off to the Hoss ...

[Amyxoxo]

...
The hospital that it.
Hopefully tomorrow.
I think that I might as well get admitted whilst I'm there.
I'm going to see her.
I don't know why. She brought this on herself.
I had a thought today, a thought that has become the norm now.
What would it be like to die?
I was talking to my dog (as you do ;) ) After I watched The lovely bones.
I started to get quite excited about dying.

I don't know what I'm looking for in this post.
Nothing I so pose, just like life ...

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Hun suicide is never the answer. you should not even think like that. Movies also provoke emotions we would not normally feel in the same situation in real life. Dying isnt like it is made out in movies. Hun i think you know what you need to do, when you go to the hospital get yourself admitted and get the help you need. Noone has to suffer in silence and everyone deserves happiness

[overcome.]

If something were to happen to you, minor or major, I don't think you realise how much it could effect the people around you. Family, friends, they'd find it extremely hard to cope. Particularly family. You'll cause them a pain that they won't forget for the rest of their lives. Then comes the self blame on their behalf. "What could I have done different, why did she do it, is it my fault?" - That's an awful lot of pain to leave behind.

Don't give up on yourself. You have a life to lead, it's upto you to make it the life that you desire.