To stupid to accept help when it is right there ...

[Amyxoxo]

Seriously what is wrong with me?

So I finally told a teacher at school about my self harm I (and everyone around me) thought that it was great. I was pretty excited about getting help, however I cant decide if I want it yet.
So I went to the doctors for a urgent referral as they thought that I was going to kill myself and one big thing threw me off. There was someone else (a trainee doctor) in the room. I could not answer a single question truthfully -.-

Seriously -
1) When do you self harm? - Not that often, about 3-4 times a week.
*-Everyday, up to three times if I feel like it!
2) Are you sexually active? - No
* Of course I have been pregnant 3 times ... -.-
3) Where do you self harm? - Just on my arms.
* Every were, depends if there is any space!

I will get a letter soon giving me my appointment to go to see the councilor I really want to just tell her the truth but I have never been able to do that to anyone ... apart from one person.

-My best friend

I just kinda let it all out, it took me 2 years to bring myself to do it!
I cant say it all again I then had an idea ...

"Could I get her to write it down or tell someone everything that I said?"

I know that it sounds like I'm trying to get out of it all and yes I am sort of but I ... dont know. YOu know ...

So yeah what should I do because I just really dont know ... -.-

[Jagster]

I recommend looking at this article. Click Here. (http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Cutting-Yourself)

It gives some good ideas that might help you with your problem.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Pride, you dont want to admit that theres something wrong with you. Because that means you have to work to fix it. Your afraid it might take to much out of you to try to stop.

[1_21Guns]

You could always write it down, you dont even have to write it down to yourself, pretend your writing a letter to your best friend, then show the counciller the letter, explain this is the easiest way for you to tell the truth for now.
Your not stupid for not taking help, I just dont think your sure your ready to accept it.
Find whats best for you, telling the truth doesnt mean verbally explaining what you've done, it can be done in many other forms too.
good luck.