UGH! i hate the way i am sometimes..

[Lifeguard18]

title says it all basically. i shall explain:

Age: 17, sophomore in high school (Dont ask why i am a sphomore. too long of a story)
Weight: 195 (people say i lm am losing weight but I DONT SEE IT)
Workout: I dont :(
Fat: Definatly not fat. I am between skinny and fat. idk how to describe it.
Abs: None :(
Arm muscle: A little but not visible

So i am asking for help like, what is a good workout plan, what foods should i eat? I am an extremely picky eater. I dont eat much fruit, i do once in a while, no veggies at all. I dont eat a lot of junk food to be honest. I am not active at all except in gym class. I am active during the summer because i work at a water park from 10 am to 7 pm. People mistake me as a football player, WHICH I FUCKING HATE! i am big but not big big like a football player.

I want to be skinny and have muscle, abs mostly, but i am not active and dont eat right. i want too so so much but my parents will get to involved and tell me what to do and how to run my life and all during this process. I think i am too too lazy. I spend a lot of time on the computer way too much. Its one of my hobbies to be honest next to working in a water park which is so fricken fun and totally awesome. its my second year working at a water park. i am getting cpr certified. we have a gym in the basement, the TOTAL GYM from QVC my dad uses sometimes.

This extremely sadens me a lot. when i see other guys who are fit and have abs i am extremely jealous and i say to myself, "Why can't i look like that?" sometimes i cry at night because i am not fit like that. this is coming to the point where i want to take steroids to look like that but i am not because they are dangerous and can cause a lot of damage and i could die. if steroids were not harmful in any kind of way, i would be taking them. i even googled on how to make homemade steroids and now i feel DISGUSTED on doing that. i dont have abs and not much muscle. when i suck in my stomach, you can see a the tiniest outline of v shaped abs. my parents and family and friends say i am losing weight, WHICH I AM NOT I DONT SEE IT AT ALL! just my face seems skinny, but my body fat isnt.

i dont know how to come up with a good workout plan and what good stuff i should eat. i am too attached to the computer and my ipod touch a lot. i think this is do to depression. i am feeling like that a little because i am always thinking of how i have no muscle what so ever.

i am going to say again, when i see other guys with abs and all, i get extremely jealous and sometimes i cry at night because i dont have any. the only sport i play is bowling, it sounds lame but true. and the other only sport i play is volleyball but i am not in a league or anything, i just play it during gym at school.

i need help with this. i want to become fit so bad but i am just to lazy and it wont be anything i could be committed too.

PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME! just writing this makes me want to cry.

could someone help me out with a workout plan and what foods i should eat?

Here is my schedule:

I have school of course which ends at 1:59 PM
For the rest of the day, i am on the computer, having diner, or homework.
On the weekends, i may hang out with friends. depends what they are doing.
On the weekends, i love to sleep in around 10:30 to 11:00 and i normally go to bed around 12 to 12:30 in the morning or around 2:00 if i am not tired or cant go to sleep and wake up around 10:30 to 11:00.
Until i have plans, im either mostly on the computer for a while, or my iPod :(

I just want help with this.

[Peace God]

my best piece of advice when trying a new diet/workout plan is take your time
dont worry as much about physical results in the first month or so
just make sure that you are at least progressing every week(simply meaning eating healthier and being more active) little by little

once you change your diet you will feel A LOT better and after a while the thought of eating a huge fatty steak or a big mac will repulse you

same thing with being more active...
when you first start working out or playing a sport, do something that you feel comfortable with doing, then after a while...sitting on your ass will be very boring and you will actually crave doing something active

[Lifeguard18]

my best piece of advice when trying a new diet/workout plan is take your time
dont worry as much about physical results in the first month or so
just make sure that you are at least progressing every week(simply meaning eating healthier and being more active) little by little

once you change your diet you will feel A LOT better and after a while the thought of eating a huge fatty steak or a big mac will repulse you

same thing with being more active...
when you first start working out or playing a sport, do something that you feel comfortable with doing, then after a while...sitting on your ass will be very boring and you will actually crave doing something active

thanks so much. its going to be hard to try new foods and all and extremely hard to give up what i extremely like. i cant stand big macs. lol. just looking at them makes me want to throw up with all that mustard ketchup, lettuce tomato, etc. lol. like if i work out for even five minutes, i will be like, this is boring i am done. and i would never do it again. thats my main problem.

[Peace God]

thanks so much. its going to be hard to try new foods and all and extremely hard to give up what i extremely like. i cant stand big macs. lol. just looking at them makes me want to throw up with all that mustard ketchup, lettuce tomato, etc. lol. like if i work out for even five minutes, i will be like, this is boring i am done. and i would never do it again. thats my main problem.
its ok if you workout for 5mins as long u workout for 6mins the next day(or within the next 2-3 days) and then 7mins after that... you see what im sayin?
also working out isnt as boring as you might think and if it is, you can try an active hobby/sport(i recommend skateboarding)
you have be committed though..it isnt a one time thing, it's a lifestyle change

It's also important that you focus on your health rather than your appearance(which will changes anyway once you get healthier) or else you probably wont get anywhere.

[Lifeguard18]

its ok if you workout for 5mins as long u workout for 6mins the next day(or within the next 2-3 days) and then 7mins after that... you see what im sayin?
also working out isnt as boring as you might think and if it is, you can try an active hobby/sport(i recommend skateboarding)
you have be committed though..it isnt a one time thing, it's a lifestyle change

It's also important that you focus on your health rather than your appearance(which will changes anyway once you get healthier) or else you probably wont get anywhere.

i see what you are saying. just gradually increase workout time each day. skateboarding, no my thing. haha. there is no way i could skateboard. i would probably ride my bike once a day or two times a day for a little bit. doctors recommend i get onto a diet.