I can't eat

[Fallen_embers]

I've recently recovered from and eating disorder, and was let out of recovery in February, and I've been trying so hard to distract myself from not eating by throwing myself into work ect, sort of trying to focus on something other than my damn body. And now I'm always nervous about deadlines, exams, days out ect it's unreal. :(

I feel so sick all the time, I think it's due to nerves? and when I eat it gets 10 times worse, so I just stopped eating because I felt better. And then I lost weight and I don;t know if I'm happy with that or not. And now I'm paranoid I've started with my eating disorder again, which means more nerves. This is such a mess, and I'm so tired because no matter what time I go to bed, 8pm, 1am, I can't sleep til 3am and I'm waking up at 7:30 feeling sick to the core.

Spoken to my Gran about it, and she's on about the doctors but I'm on medication for schizophrenia and on strong pain killers for broken ribs at the moment, and I really don't want any more damn pills to take. I just want to be normal :(

Just don't know what to do. sorry :what:

[PuppetPrince]

Im sorry to hear this. Well now im starting to think about myself. Cuz lately whenever my best friend spends the night over at my house. I have some weird ass dream and the following morning , i feel dead sick. ANd i will end up throwing up. >.< ugh.

Well dont worry so much. I am sure you have tons of things in your head. Just take a day off , relax [go to the mall / park], you need some rest. Even though you can't for some odd reason , you should try. Just take some ni-quil or sleeping pills. Try and get you act back together again ! be confident.

[Sordid Saint]

I think you should talk to the doctor about this. It seems like they could give you something that will either make you want to eat, or give you the right things (like protein and vitamins) by eating minimum amounts