I know I'm new.. but /:

[BeckeZam]

I need help.
I need to stop cutting.
It's gotten so serious that I have "Love" written in my left arm and "Hate" written on my right arm, and the scars are like, purple, they're so deep.
Last night I had a breakdown, the guy I'm completely and utterly in love with just broke up with me and I don't allow myself to show emotion, so he thinks I couldn't care less, and just says even meaner things. I know I'm better off without him, and at first I was really happy. Because he treated me like crap and cheated on me. But then he took one of my "best friends" away from me, and I now have 73 deep cuts on my left and right arms that bled for like, ten minutes.
I feel so alone.
I had told my two best friends, and the one who likes me started almost like crying. He told me I can't do this to myself, because he loves me and he can't see me tearing myself up. My other best friend just flipped out, and just called me and sat there on the phone with me crying and calling me baby and stuff.
I want to stop, I don't want to be known as the "emo freak" anymore. I don't want to have to resort to a razor anymore. I want to stop hurting myself and my friends.

Can somebody please give me some reassurance D:

[screamtobeheard]

:console: I understand why you need and want to stop, but stopping by yourself is hard. The best advice I can give you is to seek help. Talk to a counselor or a therapist of some sort. Can you go to your parents? They can help you find someone you need so you can start getting better. Look on the bright side. You have friends that love you and support you. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for them. Good luck, hun. PM me if you need to talk at all.

[BeckeZam]

Thank you /:
Nah, I can't go to my parents.
You know how most parents would like, cry ?
My mom would flip on me and send me away.
And lol honestly, i hate talking to counselers.
..But I'll try /:
Thank you!<3

[georgiamay]

maybe you could try and see a councelor, your parents don't need to know about it.
i understand what you're going through, so you can PM if you ever feel like you need to talk to someone about it.
i know it will be hard, but stopping is possible. if you have friends that support you, then you can pull through this. recognising that you want to stop, and that cutting is not actually helping the situation is the first step to recovery.
showing emotion will help. if you have a friend that you know won't judge you, then just vent to them. venting normally does help.
i hope you pull through this, PM me if you ever need to talk :) x

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Welcome to VT Becki :)
Stopping cutting, I won't lie to you, is very hard. You need to have willpower and a friend to help you through it. Alot of people on here will lend an ear for you to vent to whenever you need it. :) You should write when ever you feel like cutting, write whatever you are feeling, it really does help sort everything out in your head.
Good luck Becki, you can do this. :) Drop me a PM whenever you want. :hug:

[TakeMyHand]

Your story sounds a bit familiar to one of mine. When I started cutting, I told exactly two of my friends as well, except they thought it was weird and funny and one said "You're just looking for attention, that's what people who cut do it for." which is complete bullshit considering I'm keeping it a secret from most everyone else. The only other person who knows is my mom, and when she found out she didn't really seem to care very much, she just sort of said please stop and said it was stupid. :(

The fact that your friends almost cried and cared so much means a lot. If you can't go to anyone else remember that there are people like them who will be there for you because they care, including us on VT. :)

[screamtobeheard]

Right, I understand. I can't go to my parents either. But it never hurts to ask. And nobody really wants to talk to a counselor. It's just a matter of trying to do what you know is best for yourself. :) Like I said, you can always PM me.

[lipstick_kisses23]

Hey Becke =]
We have a little in common; my boyfriend recently broke up with me too. I don't cut, but that cut me deeper than any blade in the world could. Im not gonna tell you to "just stop" or "think about something else" because I have 3 friends who cut themselves when they feel depressed too and I know for a fact how hard it can be to let out emotions by speech rather than taking the less verbal route. PM me sometime i'd really like to be a friend =].

Love,
Kuppy <3

[Lemonlover934]

Ahh, I am really sorry to hear that you are upset. But the fact you see you are better off without him is good, even though it doesn't stop the pain.
It's good you confided in someone and although their reactions were distressing your friends sound like they really care, so hopefully they can help.
Just try and stop hurting yourself, because you can get through this without cutting.
If you want to talk please PM me, i will always try and help x

[HeroesAndCons]

If u wana talk PM me
:bigsmile: :hug:

[lovebug]

You sound like a sweet, dedicated person. But you need help.
You've got the first step done: you recognized you have a problem and you need help! So good, that's one of the hardest steps.

And we can guide you with the rest, 'kay? I'm here, we all are. If you want, you can PM me, and if you have a phone we can text; anything. I want you to tell somebody- either from VT or a trusted friend- BEFORE you're about to cut.