fantastic, stupendous, marvoulous.... *sarcasism*

[Asylum]

life sucks.... you don't have to tell me twice... but will parents ever freaken let up? no.... oh no... of course not... so i'll explain today, because i have no one to vent to right now, and its either bottled up or typed out... so its getting tyuped out. so i wasn't out at 3:10 the time i'm supposed to be outside waiting for my parents after school. i lose track of time and am 3 minutes late. mom calls... i left. she is screaming i hav to tkae your sister to a dentist appointment... she will be late!! mind you 20 minutes early... so i was left at school for a few hours... calls again this time cursing me screaming crying you hate us, why odn' you get out on time why do you hate us so much? i odn't hate you i'm sorry i lost track of time, and the school clock is different from hers.. so in school thinking ok... this is great when she picks me up more screaming... and jsut wait till dad gets home... oi vey... so i'm now thinking and getting paranoid.. oh no... dad.. he wiilll flip.. he is never calm about anyhing... and he just has it out for me... seirously.. i would lke to hear him talk to me the way he does my sister. so i get picked up get silent treatment then more screaming. luckily she let me keep the plans i had for tonight... but my friends showed up 15 minutes late, when i was waiting an hour for them... and i told mom i think they arne't coming.. so dad picked me up, blamed me for the time issue, its my lack of communication that put everyone at inconvienience.. i'm sorry i put everyone at inonvience. i was told to be ther 7:30... i was dropped off at 7 because it was convienient for mom. they came 7:55. dad picked me up 8:10. i couldn't stay and watch the movie with friends who just showd up because he had work, and changed his mind aobut me going oh wiat the movie will last longer then i thought t would... on the wy home... he told me everyhting i did long. about how irresponsible i am with looking at colleges, cleaning, times. then when i got home i got screamd at by mom.. then i get my phone and computer curfew lowered down to 10 o cloclk it gets tacken away so i cna't talk to anyone.. an ltos of other things.. ore screaming... i jsut want to cry.... so i gott right upstairs and cleaned... wasn't today wonderful? i really need a hug now... and i so badly jst want ot cry...

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug: If you ever need/want to talk to someone I'm here to listen even though you don't know me.

[Asylum]

thank you chasing dreams :)

[CuriousDestruction]

I always have a hug for anyone who needs one. *HUGS* if you wanna talk about this more in depth feel free to PM me hun.

[Sith Lord 13]

:hug: *Hugs*

I understand the whole parent issue and just wanting a hug. Been there, done that, got the t-shirt. I wish I knew what I could tell you that would make it all better. The one thing you could change or communicate that would make them understand you. Unfortunately, after god knows how many years, I figured out there wasn't any special thing that can be done. No matter how hard you try, you will never be perfect and that's just what they seem to want right? They bitch when you're 3 minutes late, but don't care all the times you're on time or early.

Well, I have good news and bad news. Bad news is, there is nothing you can do right now to change a thing. You just have to live with it. I suggest finding something you can be passionate about and throwing yourself into it. When you allow your life to become focused on something good, these moments just seem to seem a little less dark.

The good news is it gets better. As you get older, your parents begin to understand, at least a little. Once you're not living under the same roof as them things get much better. Since I've been away at college, I've been able to have phone conversations with my mother that were actually fun. :eek: I was shocked.

For now http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n306/Bop_Island/Hang-inHound-dog.jpg

[Asylum]

thanx guys *hugs* sith lord, what you said gives me hope, thank you so much <3

today was also wondeerful.... i showed my mom the lifehouse skit everyting... and guess what when it came to the self harm person, she goes oh there's Songul..... that killed me inside. as far as she knows i stopped, and yet i still get stuck with it. nothing can be changed... then she goes see its the devil! it maks you watch shows a about murder, and listen to marilyon manson its all the devil!!!!! and you let him in yor life instead of resisting then she strts crying... i'm like .. seirously? i like that stuff.... its interesting , i love mansons voice and guitar sund, i love murder shows because it has forensics and i want to do that... it interests me.. at least im not watching sex or somethign just as corrupt for the worng reasons. you can watch happier stuff and listen to happier things.... they arent on when i goto watch tv which i rarely do... and i do listn to good music... an i'd go to church but you won't go or take me ... well you neve get up, you never wke me or tell me your going because ou never go! arghh... i swear... i wish she'd stop being mean... then we got into discussion of religion. i talked about Islam was and how awesome it was. no i'm not interested in becoming muslim, i like learnign about different religions . and she is like you want to ecome muslim now don't you, started tlaking about terrorists.. i'm like omg... so i explained what it was... first paganism now islam... no religion is right mom, its all human made. even christianity, it wasn't formed by Christ, but formed around him. so it can't be 100% perfect. mom.. religions intrest me... you are following a devilish path!!! mom... i don't wish to be ignorant of the world. holding one opinion on everythgn... i want ot understand, and islam is a lot like christianity its interesintg, i just wanted to share with you some happy interesting thigns i'm learning about.. well i'm christian i'm not interested... so? jesus was willing to accept all beleifs... why can't you be like him? i'm far from Jesus ... *chuckles inside my head... darn right you are* so am i but isn't chrstianity becoming like christ? become acceptin... i'm done with this conversation ... ok? argh...