I could use a little assurance

[upgrayedd]

I've only posted on here once before, but I've read and watched for a while now... I have a dilemma.
I started and stopped Self Harm twice. Once a year ago, once a few months ago. I know it's bad, and spirals fast. I know it causes more problems than it helps. I know if I start, I won't be able to stop on my own. And yet, I'm getting more and more tempted.

I'm obsessing about it. The argument of should I or shouldn't I is popping up at every idle moment. I try to remind myself that I still argued with myself about cutting even when I did it. All that's done is make me think that if I just did it, just let go, I wouldn't have to argue about it with myself. It would be easier.

It's just starting to feel... inevitable. I am asking myself less and less " Will I self harm ever again?" and more and more "Will I self harm Next week? Tomorrow? Today? Right Now.."

I guess the point is, I do not entirely trust my judgment and would like a little reassurance that not doing it is the right course.

[Sapphire]

Your rational side is the side to trust. The side of you that is urging you not to self harm is the side you should listen to, trust and follow.

Self harming will only be taking a backwards step. It would be such a shame if you succumbed to this again.

[CuriousDestruction]

Self harm is debilitating and addictive. the more you do it, the worse you feel over time, and the harder it is to stop. not to mention it does more and more damage. i know it's hard to resist, seriously, i sympathize. but you just need to distract yourself as much as you can from it and move past it. be stronger than it.

[The Redlight Bandit]

Bottom Line=If you follow your sensble thoughts, you'll turn out alright. GOOD LUCK!!

[Fiction]

Listen to the part telling you not to do it. I know this can be hard because i have been in the exact same situation as you, but keep battling against it. The longer you go without the less you will need it.
Pm me if you want to talk :)

[Lemonlover934]

It is such a downward spiral. Listen to the side which is telling you not to, you can beat the temptation, it's hard, but you can. And it will be best for you in the end.
PM me if you need/want to talk x

[upgrayedd]

:yes: Thank you. Thank you all

[Hollywood]

like everyone said, always go with the side of you that says "this may be wrong, maybe i shoulden't", b/c 99.9% of the time, that side is correct. i hope everything works out for you and you wont hurt yourself anymore. good luck