I caved

[Dark Angel 26]

I caved didn't I, I fucking caved. I absolutely hate myself for it. I just had to. This week has been absolutely horrible. At counselling, it's been getting harder, and I've been doing nothing but thinking about all the bad things and it all hurts so much.
I feel so stupid now, because I feel like all my good progress has been so pointless.

[Asylum]

its not pointless hun, its hard. you are doing your best, look how far you have come, it shows the end is near. pick yourself up and begin againg. PM meifyoever want to talk, vent etc.

[Sith Lord 13]

Your work hasn't been pointless. You've made progress right? You stopped for a while which shows that you can stop. Today was a setback, yes, but it doesn't mean what your progress has been pointless. It was just that: progress.All it means is you have to keep working. Its been a bad week, you stumbled. You just have to pick yourself back up and keep going. You clearly want to stop, so you will. It's a long hard journey, but it's worth it.

[MadManWithaBox]

You shouldn't feel stupid, and you shouldn't hate yourself. One slip up on what can be a long road is nothing, you should be congratulating yourself for making it as far as you have, even if it was only a few days, or a week. Progress is progress. No point beating yourself up about it. Just stand up and try again.

[georgiamay]

just remember that just because you slipped up, it doesn't mean you can't continue to make progress. you stopped for a while didn't you? which shows that you can. you slipped up, sure. but everyone makes mistakes. it's what makes us human. all you have to do is pick yourself up and carry on. remember that your efforts have not been pointless, because they show that you are strong enough to stop. you can PM me if you ever need to talk. just remember that if you've come this far, you can go further. x

[Fiending_the_freedom]

We all slip up, it's part of the learning process.
Don't feel guilty about it, just move on and keep trying.
We all know you are capable of quitting.
The fact that your in councelling even though you hate it is very brave.
It's harder said than done but you need to catch yourself when you start thinking negitivley of yourself and stop yourself before you get into that cycle, because you are just making this harder for yourself. It's not easy, achiving the good things never are.

[krafty29]

just pick yourself up and start again, you gotta get there eventually right?

[Dark Angel 26]

Thanks guys, I do feel a little bit better now. I just felt so hopeless, I guess I didn't manage to get past cutting, and thinking positive, you know?
I've got a session tomorrow morning, I'll keep you all posted and let you know how it goes.