I hate it.

[screamtobeheard]

I hate this so much. There are tears in my eyes almost all the time, whether or not there's a reason. I feel so alone because none of my friends care enough to try to listen and my parents are generally too busy yelling at me and making things worse. I feel so worthless but when I punish myself I feel guilty. And I really feel like my future is only going to get worse. I hate it so, so much. I really need to find a way out.

[Sith Lord 13]

There is always a way to go up. As you move through life it gets better. If you need someone to talk to my PM box is always open

[Mattasaur94]

Being lonely can suck, it can seem like your friends have turned their backs on you and such, but, perhaps they just see that your hurt and they want you to try and avoid thinking about it.
Talking to people about things is the best way.
Parents can be jerks. They seem to get to an age where they forget what it's liek to be a teenager, they treat us as they were most probably treated themselves, why? because they don't know any better.
Main things:
1- You are NOT worthless, every life has a purpose, even if you have no idea what it is, where there's light, there can be darkness, right? So, if you feeling lonely, find a candle (metaphorically) and light it, let it illuminate you. Try and focus on the positive, talk to your friends, go to them, rather than expecting them to come to you.
2- When you say that you feel guilty when you punish yourself, do you mean self-harm?
Because if you do, please don't. In all honesty it's not the way to punish yourself, and why should you be punished? being a teenager is hard, it's really hard. everythin is changing and things are rapidly happening, the slightest things can set off depression or loneliness.

If you want, VT is ALWAYS here for you, my inbox is always open.
People don't want to hang out with someone who's gloomy and alone, if you smile and talk to your friends, as hard as it may seem, soon you won't find a need to put on a fake smile, your friends will accept you alot easier if they don't see you as hurt or lonely, just talk to them.
As with your parents... I'm still figuring that one out myself. I'll get back to you on it some day. (:

[screamtobeheard]

That's true. I've never thought about it that way. I try to talk to people, but I can never seem to work up the nerve for some reason. That's all really good advice. I'll work on it. (: And yeah, I mean self harm. :/ I feel like I need to be punished because I don't really deserve to feel like I do. It's illogical but somehow it works in my mind.
Thanks for all your advice, I really appreciate it. (:

[MELL-AHH-KNEE]

if your friends are like that then they aren't worth all this fuss, of all the things they do to you, if you cried over them think about it, would they cry over you? and your parents should listen, get them in a moment where they aren't busy or just talk to someone about it. i know ppl care about you, even if they don't know you. i will be here for you, even though i won't be on nfor a while, i will still be here :)

[TheTrueKing]

dude sometimes i feel the exact same way try ure hardest to find new and true friends to talk two

[Hollywood]

a true friend will listen to you, so you cant really call them your "friends". I know how it feels to be alone, i have no siblings, no true friends, my dad abandoned me and my mom works a lot, but i dont let it get to me. its tough being a teenager, tougher than most think, and i understand what you're going through.

you can pm me with anything you want to talk about, or if you just want someone to talk to. see ya

[Kaius]

It might not be because they don't care, but because they just don't know what to say, or how to help. But thats still no excuse for your parents to yell at you though. Punishing yourself won't make things any better, it often makes things worse. Things and situations like this happen to the best of us, its happened to me a number of times during the past 4-5 years. If you need to talk to anyone about things, or just need someone to listen feel free at any time to pm me, or find my details on my profile, I'll be happy to listen. I hope things get better soon, just try to stay positive.