Art_dude
March 23rd, 2010, 07:18 PM
Allow me to RECRAP (yes, a combo of 'crap' and 'recap'. Check urban dictionary. Isn't it the best word?) Anyway, allow me some time to give you a backdrop to my anger....
My older sister (18) and I have never really been all that close. But we've never been distant either. I vividly remember seeing the sibling dynamics of my friends when I was younger and realizing that they either hated each other or were very close. I was always confused with my relationship to her - we weren't close but we didn't fight all that much. We were pretty much indifferent to each other: seeing one other as that person that lives in the same house as me...
Anyway, ever since my sister left for college she has become a complete and utter bitch to me and everyone that isn't one of her friends. When we went to Italy for vacation (something that my parents saved up for a long time for me because it's been my dream to study my favorite artists' work there) she was a completel and utter bitch to everyone. I'm not the only one who was confused and offended, my mom was ballistic. She was a completely bent on ruining everybody's time (especially MINE) because she didn't want to be there... (ooops, sorry for taking your spoiled ass to the most beautiful country in the world you fake bitch..)
Anyway, besides a bitchy personality she's been sporting the typical arrogant freshman college attitude ever since she's visited us. Acting like she knows everything now that she's had 'real life' experience away from home.... But I've noticed whenever she comes home she pretends we're 'really close' and asks when we're gonna 'hang out,' as if we've always been best friends... It's nauseating and I have no real desire to do it. But wanting to get something out of it, I asked if she wanted to sit for a portrait the other night (I could get practice out of it and she could get her artificial 'bonding' as she bitched about her perfect life to me as I nodded, giving herself comfort that she took time out of her high and mighty life to be with me.)
She said yes, so I told her I'd work extra hard today to finish my schoolwork in time to start at 6:00. Seeing her tired, I gave her an hour to watch t.v. and chill and told her I was ready. She said she didn't want to go downstairs to start because it's 'cold and I'm tired.' I told her she promised and she said 'I don't care.'...Infuriated I went downstairs and pounded the shit out of the couch. She came down ten minutes later to say she was sorry and she'd make it up to me. At that point I just LOST it and spilled out all the vile I felt about her, telling her what I basically told you about how I felt she acted, how she treats me and everyone else, how she is a lazy prude laying around with her boyfriend all day eating and getting fat (mean I know... I'll apologize, but it was out of rage >:(
Anyway my question is... was my outburst justified? I know I said a few unnecessary things out of rage, but do you think she deserves it or was I an ass? She treats me like shit all the time, She wants to hang out, I take time out of my SCHEDULE to fit her in, work my ass off to do it, she promises to be nice and she blows me off. I can't deal with her anymore. I basically just told her stay out of my life...
My older sister (18) and I have never really been all that close. But we've never been distant either. I vividly remember seeing the sibling dynamics of my friends when I was younger and realizing that they either hated each other or were very close. I was always confused with my relationship to her - we weren't close but we didn't fight all that much. We were pretty much indifferent to each other: seeing one other as that person that lives in the same house as me...
Anyway, ever since my sister left for college she has become a complete and utter bitch to me and everyone that isn't one of her friends. When we went to Italy for vacation (something that my parents saved up for a long time for me because it's been my dream to study my favorite artists' work there) she was a completel and utter bitch to everyone. I'm not the only one who was confused and offended, my mom was ballistic. She was a completely bent on ruining everybody's time (especially MINE) because she didn't want to be there... (ooops, sorry for taking your spoiled ass to the most beautiful country in the world you fake bitch..)
Anyway, besides a bitchy personality she's been sporting the typical arrogant freshman college attitude ever since she's visited us. Acting like she knows everything now that she's had 'real life' experience away from home.... But I've noticed whenever she comes home she pretends we're 'really close' and asks when we're gonna 'hang out,' as if we've always been best friends... It's nauseating and I have no real desire to do it. But wanting to get something out of it, I asked if she wanted to sit for a portrait the other night (I could get practice out of it and she could get her artificial 'bonding' as she bitched about her perfect life to me as I nodded, giving herself comfort that she took time out of her high and mighty life to be with me.)
She said yes, so I told her I'd work extra hard today to finish my schoolwork in time to start at 6:00. Seeing her tired, I gave her an hour to watch t.v. and chill and told her I was ready. She said she didn't want to go downstairs to start because it's 'cold and I'm tired.' I told her she promised and she said 'I don't care.'...Infuriated I went downstairs and pounded the shit out of the couch. She came down ten minutes later to say she was sorry and she'd make it up to me. At that point I just LOST it and spilled out all the vile I felt about her, telling her what I basically told you about how I felt she acted, how she treats me and everyone else, how she is a lazy prude laying around with her boyfriend all day eating and getting fat (mean I know... I'll apologize, but it was out of rage >:(
Anyway my question is... was my outburst justified? I know I said a few unnecessary things out of rage, but do you think she deserves it or was I an ass? She treats me like shit all the time, She wants to hang out, I take time out of my SCHEDULE to fit her in, work my ass off to do it, she promises to be nice and she blows me off. I can't deal with her anymore. I basically just told her stay out of my life...