Is this odd?

[PainUnreal]

Well, to preface my question, It'd probably be best to start with a rough description of my emotional state... I've fallen into a really dark hole of depression. The things that go on with me during these really bad stints are pretty... bad. I'm having trouble faking happiness like I usually do.
But is it weird that the only time that the only time I can really pull myself up out of it is to have music in my ears? Like I can put on any song at all, no matter how depressing, do any work at all, and it's no problem for me at all, but about 5-10 minutes after taking my headphones back out, I start to slip back down again. It confuses me, and I don't really mind it right now when I'm at home, but at school is when I get really bad and I can't exactly pull out my iPod during a lecture and say "well it keeps me from wanting to kill myself, so I can't listen to your lecture on [insert topic here] right now".

[Aspiringanonymous]

No, it's not odd - I've experienced the same before, and so have many others. It's a strange awareness to have - when one's own sanity is hanging on a thread that will break the moment the headphones go silent. Music has the power to induce a new layer of consciousness, and momentarily assist one in transcending the barriers of one's current state of being. It's fascinating to observe.

It's good that you have found an effective coping method, even if it cannot be applied to all situations. But, keep trying - there may yet be other helpful techniques to be uncovered, that picks off where this one leaves off. After all, it is always best not to be dependent on one single thing.

May you find peace and inner clarity.

[equestrianlover890]

I dont think that's odd at all. When I just want to stop thinking or clear my mind i turn up my ipod over everyone else. I know people who do the same and music pretty much saved their lifes it's their daily inspiration to keep on living and trying.

[Fiction]

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