screamtobeheard
March 22nd, 2010, 07:47 PM
I should have posted this yesterday, but mother dearest came up and bitched at me for no apparent reason so I had to get off the computer. Anyway, I went three weeks and four days without cutting (yes, there was some stuff that could questionably be called self harm in there, but it was pretty good). During that time I'd been restricting what foods I ate. So I decided yesterday that it'd be a good idea if every time I ate something that wasn't necessary so people didn't start asking questions I'd keep track and punish myself.
Somehow I ended up with 18 cuts on my leg today. Now, obviously I didn't eat 18 times more than I should have. I guess since I hadn't cut in so long it was kind of like...I needed to do more. And I think my mom pissed me off so much it made me do more than I meant to...Anyway, I just wanted to rant about that. :/
Somehow I ended up with 18 cuts on my leg today. Now, obviously I didn't eat 18 times more than I should have. I guess since I hadn't cut in so long it was kind of like...I needed to do more. And I think my mom pissed me off so much it made me do more than I meant to...Anyway, I just wanted to rant about that. :/