Suicide

[Grizzly]

well here it ive pretty much lost my will to live every thing is just so dull and boring and i just cant seem to smile any more i used to wonder how any one could be depressed or even what it felt like but over the last few months i have found out and i just need to know how to make it leave. School is the most depressing thing ever im either gonna have to run away or kills my self cause im no going back to that bastard of a place i even did a little research on where my artery's so i know where to cut Please is there any thing i can do or must i kill my self to escape from this horrble life

[Zephyr]

Hun, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Have you tried talking to anybody about this or tried doing anything about it? If you haven't, you can always try talking to friends and family about it. A lot of people go through depression, especially in their teens, it's a very common occurrence. It won't last forever, I promise you, a lot of us here have been through it before and have pulled through. You should try getting out and being more social, maybe exercise; It does wonders for your mood, it stimulates you into a more pleasurable state of mind. A positive change in the norm is always good once in a while, and it could really help you. It's amazing even what a simple walk can do for you, it gets you out and about rather than sitting around with too much time on your hands. I can say from experience that suicide is never going to be the answer, especially when depression can be highly well maintained, even without professional help if done right. If none of the above seem to be effective, and this keeps on persisting, you may wan't to look into counseling, even if it's just with a school counselor.

[Mattasaur94]

I agree with Steph(Epiphany).

Suicide IS a permanent solution to a temporairy problem.
Welcome to VT. Talking about your problems is possibly one of the best things you can do about it. But, that being said, it IS easier said than done.
I personally hate talking about my problems, it's a matter of personality.
It's good that you talked to us/VT about it.
Don't do it. full stop.

If life is dull and boring, find something to do. I know I go through days, weeks or even months of feeling completely hopeless and anxious to the point I throw up. Find an outlet, some thing that you can focus on.
Where there's a light, darkness can't be, right?
Find that light and just focus on it, let it engulf you.
You might not realise, but suicide effects ALOT of people around you, even attempting it.
Honestly, it sucks having friends attempt to kill themselves. If you want life to be over, then wait it out for the natural cause. Don't bring it down on yourself so soon. There's honestly no point in doing that. Things will get better, everything just takes time.

And finally... School is stupid, it's not essentially made to be a whole bundle of fun, but make freinds, hang out, make it something entertaining. I mean, I love my Drama class to infinity and beyond (Apologies for the Toy Stories quote... ^^). Find something you enjoy, people you like, focus, and rock on. (:

If you ever need to talk, we're here for you.

[BeautifulDisaster]

You'll regret it.

Don't waste the effort, use the effort on being pro-active and doing something to make your life better.

[Scarface]

I'm very sorry you are undergoing all of this stress and depression, I want you to know that you aren't alone in how you feel and i am very happy that you came here to talk about it because this is a great first step before you talk to someone in real life. Suicide is is an irreversible action and please don't do it because your family and friends that you will leave behind will be very hurt. I'm glad you came here and i hope that your able to one day talk to a therapist about your feelings because it's not good to be where your at right now. If you need someone to talk to I'm always here so don't hesitate to PM anytime. Hope this helps

[Kahn]

Grizzly your mind is troubled. You did not give enough details for me to find the cause... So I will do the best I can.

Do not make the mistake of killing yourself over a boring life. This life is the only life you're going to have, so make the most of it. You cannot get it back after you make the mistake of killing yourself. There is no turning back. It is the ultimate decision of life and death.

To escape this problem you must open up to someone. Anyone. School counselor, parent, friend, someone on this forum. You need to vent. You need to let your feelings flow through words, not actions. This will relieve some of the stress, but certainly not all of it. People are willing to help, you just have to use them.

School should not be depressing. Why is it? Are you being bullied? Is it just a drag? Does it ruin your day? Any of these could be adding to your depression. What you need to do is talk to your parents about transferring, or even getting home schooled if it is that big of a problem. A government institution like a school should not bring depression to it's students. It is sad that something like this can cause this bad of a state of mind.

Grizzly, you need help. Running away will not help you, but further your problems. Suicide will end your life, which means game over. Please, for the sake of one's life, do not hurt yourself. People are there for you. People are willing to help. You are the one that makes the decision in the end. I cannot say much more with the little detail you provided, but it is a clear sign that you need some sort of help. I am always here to talk. Almost always 24/7. PM whenever you need to. Just because you are a stranger does not mean I cannot help you. Please, PM anyone of us.

~Adam

~Adam