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lonelyboy15
March 20th, 2010, 09:45 PM
I am a seventeen year old boy. I am gay. I feel as if I have always been different my whole life. I feel like I am still different. No one knows I am gay except for myself, and honestly I try not to believe it. Homosexuality is probably my biggest fear. I know deep down inside what I am but I am no where near comfortable in my own skin. I have told a few friends I am bisexual but even then I try to bury that in their minds. I am constantly trying to brain wash myself and those around me about women I am attracted to. Subconsciously I know I am lying to myself. I can't seem to come to terms with my sexuality and it has caused me to hit my all time lowest. I am depressed. I feel as if I am fighting myself and winning is not an option. The only solution to the problem, I know, is to just be open and comfortable with myself and just tell people the truth. I am gay. I am afraid of being judged. I am afraid of having a limited life. I am always asking myself, "Why me?" My family would never accept me for who I really am. I would love to give them the benefit of the doubt but being gay is a rarity amongst my family and they are the furthest thing from being open minded. I could never muster up enough courage to tell them. I am going to be eighteen years old in three months and I feel like every day of my stupid little life has been a lie. I want to pour my heart and soul into this but it's all just too much right now.

Krazymitch
March 20th, 2010, 10:53 PM
i know how you feel . . its not easy, i so badly tried to convince myself that i was str8, but i could never even get a semi over a girl. anyways . . i am not about to tell u a sob story about myself. cause its stupid . . all i can say is your going to have to come to terms with it, just dont do anything stupid during this process of what i called 'denial' (which is what alot of people call it) . . dont try and kill your self or anything whule in this stage. cause, beleive me, once you accept it, and tell some people you feel so god dam free. it makes you so happy....i know its tuff. but hang in there. theres nothing you can do but wait till you, yourself comes to terms with it, once you accept it others should....i hope i helped

justn16IA
March 21st, 2010, 03:01 AM
I know how you feel man. I play baseball and have a feeling a lot of the guys I play with could never accept having a gay teammate. I have a couple of very close friends I've known since I was a little kid that I've told I'm BI and they are cool with it. But I keep thinking to myself God I dont want to throw away the opportunities straight guys have like having kids especially. I know my parents will never accept it and my dad once told me if I was gay he'd personally do something about it- I dont know what he meant but he was very stern when he said it. So I struggle with that also... I have all this pressure to be someone Im not and I've considered all options but I want to go to college and play baseball and study Medicine or Education I havent made up my mind. Dude just know we all walk in the same shoes and we are all here for ya no matter what!

Kitty Purry
March 22nd, 2010, 11:55 AM
This is gonna be hard for you. But in the end this is really gonna help you, and make you alot happier in life. You really need to just come to terms with yourself. Hiding who you really are is never gonna make you happy. And your parents love you, so I would beleive they would still acept you for who you truly are. And TRUST ME once someone knows who the true you is, it feels like the biggest releif ever has been lifted off your shoulders. So if you feel your ready you should start coming to terms with who you really are. And I PROMISE you will be so much happier. :D

Scarface
March 22nd, 2010, 12:05 PM
I am gay myself and i has taken a while to accept me for who I am. When i came out a year and a half ago this October will be 2 yrs. I have never felt better I started slowly telling my closest friends and they of course accepted me for who I am. My mom found out in a quite awkward way when she walked in on me and my BF making out, but she accepted me. I don't think i will ever tell my dad because he is homophobic and there are certain things he doesn't need to know. I like my way of life and If there are "friends" that don't accept you for who you are then they really aren't your friends. As i always say Personalities not Preferences. Just accept who you are as a person and you will become happier heed my word you won't regret it. I hope this helps. If you ever want someone to talk to I'm always here so don't hesitate to PM me.

Zazu
March 22nd, 2010, 12:12 PM
Chill out dude, there's nothing for you to fear or worry about. I bet you wouldn't care less if you thought you were straight would you? So why worry about being gay?



If you discover that people don't like you because of your sexuality (which you should find out), they're ignorant idiots and need slapping and to be told to wake the fuck up and accept the world they live in.



Being homosexual will not restrict you in any way, shape or form in life. Being straight wouldn't, so why let being homosexual affect you?

Ta.

Inconvenience
March 22nd, 2010, 12:59 PM
u are worried and it's normal. if u think ur parent aint gonna accept u as a gay, don't tell them. if i were gay and if i came out for my parents i'm sure they'd kick me outta home, so just do what fits most. now about friends.. Good friends accept us whoever we are, because they love in us who we are, not the fact who we're fuc*in with. if u just don't know how to start, just tell that u are who u are, and that they've loved u all this time couse of ur personality not coz of the sexuality. hope they will understand :)

and in the end i'd strongly advice to focuse on girls. to focus on love, kids and family u must have in future. family without a child sound very empty.. and if u talk to me about adoption i'd just reply that of caurse u don't want ur kid to be laughed at with words: "ha ha, ur dad is gay" ;)

sorry if i sound homophobic.. i just want u to be OK ;)

YouKnowWho
March 23rd, 2010, 10:38 PM
Do what makes you feel safe. You don't have to tell the world just yet. Just yourself is enough. When you graduate (if you haven't already), you'll most likely start seeing around you that over people are gay too. 1 out of 10 is gay. You're not alone. :)