big rant incoming...

[Strength]

ok i have to get this off my chest. and i really need the oppinons other everyone here.


some serious stuff happed last night

i was sitting in my room doing what ever thats cool..my gf was at her friends party..obviously some alcohol there and what not..but all night i had a strange feeling...i was being paranoid all night she was cheating on me. and then she calls me ...obviously a bit drunk (she exaggerated being blind drunk but i dont believe her or her lying friends) and she was ranting on about nothing until she said she passed out vomited on her self and got in a shower...she said she was naked in the shower and that another guy got in there with her...i naturally wanted to strangle them both. but heres the funny part...when i saw her and confronted them both about it she said she was in a BIKINI...not naked...now what i want to understand is why would she change her story so dramatically? even if you are a bit drunk i know when im drunk i dont change the details of an event that happened 20mins ago so dramatically...now her and all her friends including this guy are trying to convince me she had a bikini and was in the shower and the guy handed her a towel...im thinking that they all got scared and are covering for eachother because they know im bit of a "heavy" person if you get me and know some people and i react badly to betrayal. because i came to the house with 10 other people very angry as you'd imagine so im thinking they all just got scared of what could happen and are covering for eachother.

things im looking out for are signs of guilt from my girlfriend...which should be easy to spot. im on my toes.

i just needed to get that out there. if anyone wants to make a comment on this please feel free to do so and tell me what you think of this situation. because even if my gf is telling the truth...im having a hard time trusting her.

[Kaius]

It sounds as though you're in a bit of a tough situation. In my opinion, if there's no trust, theres nothing to base a strong relationship on. I think you need to have some time to yourself to get your thoughts together. Think over things. Theres a lot of things to take into consideration also. Is she the type to do that? Could there be a reasonable explanation? The best way to try and find out the truth would probably be to get her alone, and talk to her about it. Tell her you aren't mad, you just want to know the truth as to what went on. Whatever she tells you then, take that on board. If you feel you may be able to put it in the past and give it another try, go for it. If not, then think through the available options.

[Strength]

It sounds as though you're in a bit of a tough situation. In my opinion, if there's no trust, theres nothing to base a strong relationship on. I think you need to have some time to yourself to get your thoughts together. Think over things. Theres a lot of things to take into consideration also. Is she the type to do that? Could there be a reasonable explanation? The best way to try and find out the truth would probably be to get her alone, and talk to her about it. Tell her you aren't mad, you just want to know the truth as to what went on. Whatever she tells you then, take that on board. If you feel you may be able to put it in the past and give it another try, go for it. If not, then think through the available options.

i did take her aside and said if she just told me the truth all would be forgiven but theres far too many holes in the story. i feel gutted. i hate her i love her i dont trust her and ive lost my feelings. i dont know what to do.

i thought she was different from other girls...she always told me how her bfs all cheated on her...but after last night she tells me no no ive never cheated on YOU but i have cheated on my other bfs...now i really dont think shes worthy of my trust. i feel horrible...i cant believe i was foolish enough to trust another human being. they all backstab you in the end...no matter how convinced you are they wont.

[Kaius]

I can see why you think that, but not all people will hurt you. Believe me I once thought that same after something similar to this happened to me, but in the end it makes you stronger. If you need to talk at all, feel free to pm me at any time. Would suggesting a break be a possible temporary solution? You both may be able to get things in order and after a break you might be able to make a better judgement on the situation.

[Strength]

I can see why you think that, but not all people will hurt you. Believe me I once thought that same after something similar to this happened to me, but in the end it makes you stronger. If you need to talk at all, feel free to pm me at any time. Would suggesting a break be a possible temporary solution? You both may be able to get things in order and after a break you might be able to make a better judgement on the situation.

it's too hard for me to trust people anymore. ive been hurt so many times i dont think i can do it again. they always convince me that they're different. i dont understand. ive never betrayed ANYONE before im always loyal and respectful, i'd do anything for my partner or friends and this is what i get in return....i just dont understand how people can do this. i think ive decided when im older iam leaving this place. im leaving the country im leaving my family and "friends" behind. i dont want to see any of them again. i want a new life.


i promised myself too, from the begining. this would be the last time i ever let sumone hurt me. never again am i letting this happen. no one is worthy of my trust. they dont get it until they prove their loyalty with years of friendship. im sick of everyone. the useless lying swine around me. i fee like im a person surrounded by filth, greed, lies and perverts. i know there are decent people out there, but i just havent found them yet.

i just spoke to her on the phone. after talking for a bit she said she loved me, i said it back but i dont think i mean it anymore...i really dont feel it anymore...fucking hell!!!! everytime something good happens it gets ruined.


its freigen happening all over again. same as last time. after being hurt so many times i stopped feeling emotions, everything was/is dulled. and then i met HER and i started feeling again but now shes gone and hurt me again and taken that away from me. now ive lost it i got nothing to lose now.

it really is happening...i dont feel anything anymore....i dont care what happens.

[MyNameIsJack]

oh, dude that's so sad, I kind of know how it feels like. :S
Don't argue with her, tell her that you know what happened and thats it.
Forget her, or be jsut FRIENDS, take my advice if you want to.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Ok hun i really think you just need to take a deep breath. Sometimes people hurt u and wrongfully so but not everyone is bad and you will find someone who will treat you with the respect you deserve. but right now you need to take a deep breath, step back and assess the situation and then decide if you still want to be with her or not.

[Strength]

It's been worked out. We're still together but I'm still distrustful and paranoid. :confused::(