1_21Guns
March 19th, 2010, 07:29 PM
My friends are all pretty much disowning me.
I have no idea what i've done - probably nothing.
My family are just beging twats with me and eachother.
I saw my dad's car drive past on the way home today, just about managed just not break down on the spot. I should've been in that car. I should've never gone away. I should've never made that mistake.
Everything feels so empty, I have no will to get out of bed anymore - at all.
Nothing feels real.
My moods up and down all the time, earlier I was really happy, seeing the funny side of the whole thing. Now I just feel nothing.
Not a single day goes by where I don't think about cutting. Ways I could and not get caught, then just catch myself thinking about it and having to tell myself to shut the hell up.
Even if I did cut, I don't think i'd feel it. I can't feel much anymore.
I don't feel like anything, doing anything, just anything.
I knew my mood was gonna start doing this again sooner or later, but it's been a few months now, and I completley forgot just how horrible it was.
I can't take it. I'm wandering around with aload of crap at school with everything else on my mind. Its driving my crazy. It really is.
I have no idea what i've done - probably nothing.
My family are just beging twats with me and eachother.
I saw my dad's car drive past on the way home today, just about managed just not break down on the spot. I should've been in that car. I should've never gone away. I should've never made that mistake.
Everything feels so empty, I have no will to get out of bed anymore - at all.
Nothing feels real.
My moods up and down all the time, earlier I was really happy, seeing the funny side of the whole thing. Now I just feel nothing.
Not a single day goes by where I don't think about cutting. Ways I could and not get caught, then just catch myself thinking about it and having to tell myself to shut the hell up.
Even if I did cut, I don't think i'd feel it. I can't feel much anymore.
I don't feel like anything, doing anything, just anything.
I knew my mood was gonna start doing this again sooner or later, but it's been a few months now, and I completley forgot just how horrible it was.
I can't take it. I'm wandering around with aload of crap at school with everything else on my mind. Its driving my crazy. It really is.