Rant

[screamtobeheard]

This may or may not be in the right spot, but it's kind of a rant so I put it here.

I'm just really really pissed off right now. I'm tired of being told how to live my life. I've got teachers pushing me to take this class or that class when I know what I want! I know what I want to do with my life, and I know how to do it. I've got my mother pushing me to go to a local college but I can't stand it here! And I'm only a sophomore anyway! I'm so fucking tired of hearing "well if you go local, we can afford to buy you a car and you'll be able to make a down payment on a house" and blah blah blah. I don't care! I just want to be able to live my life the way I want. Not the way you've planned it out for me. Go to a local school, get an internship, and work for the government for the rest of my life. Here. Forever. I hate the future my mother has planned for me and I don't want it! Then I have my band teacher guilting me into taking that waste of my time class again next year! Random people who don't know me telling me to fix my uniform. Take spanish, it's better for you in college! How the hell do they know what's best for me?! They don't. I may only be 15, but you can ask any of my teachers or my parents. I'm mature for my age. I know what's best for me. And I think that's why they try to push me around. It's driving me insane. It's my life. Why can't I live it the way I want? Sometimes I just want to cry because the way people are planning my life out for me, I'm going to hate my life. Forever. I don't want that.

And then my friends drive me insane. The easiest way to put it is that the world has no individuality anymore. So they've decided to steal mine. Everything I do, every choice I make they follow. Yes, I know "imitation is the highest form of flattery" but I don't care! Go find someone else to flatter because I don't need little puppets following me around. And believe me, they follow me. I've actually had to run away from them before to be alone.

But basically I'm just in a really bad mood and I needed to rant but obviously I can't tell any of my friends or anything about my issues so I posted here. :/ Sorry about the ranting.

[Ryhanna]

Don't worry Amanda.
Things will get better for you, just keep pushing on and stay positive. Look at the good side of life, not the sad side.

[Vacuola]

In life we have people that normally does that. Push us to what they think is right for us. We feel like they want to life our life. But the important thing here is what you really want? What are your goals in your life? They are just, in one way or another, trying to give you an advise, but you are the judge that decides what to do. Of course there are things that you don't have the choice to decide until you are a legal adult. But what are you going to do with your college life is up to you. I recommend that first you evaluate every single detail of what you really want and the possibilities to do that. Then go and talk to them. Explain what you really want. Let them know that they are pushing you too much and that you feel sophocated and more important that you know what to do.

[screamtobeheard]

I'll try. (: Thank you guys.