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[Snake217]

Just when I tought my life was going good, when i tought i was happy, I finally had the guts to tell a girl i like her, and ask her to be my gf, and she just shouted NO, and went away...

I know ill regret this, I know what it does to me, but right now I had nothing to do, nothing to beleive in, nothing to get relief of....

I cutted myself for the first time, i liked it, i liked the scar, in someway made me feel better, but part of me tells me to not do it again, and the other part tells me to do it.

Will sound harsh but I just wanted to getthis out my chest, I know what kind of comments ill get, and beleive me, wont make me stop...

[screamtobeheard]

I remember what making the first cut is like. I think for everybody it's different, but for anyone who keeps doing it, some part of them likes it for some strange, sick reason. It's always a choice and I know you want to keep doing it, but please, please try to stop it before it gets out of hand. You'll end up regretting it in the future, trust me.

[Aspiringanonymous]

I'm not going to flood your eyes with "don't do it stop right now it's bad for you" s right now, because you seem to understand that already.

But are you sure? Knowing and understanding are two different things. What does regret look like? That's only an extremely dimmed down scope of what the experience actually feels like. But it usually isn't just regret that plagues the consciousness of a chronic self-harmer - there is so much more involved than barely anyone realizes can even be possible, the moment they make the first cut.

When that door leading down the path of self-destruction is opened, there is no telling what one could encounter along the way. Everything beyond the present moment is in a state of uncertainty - especially powerful forces which one has no prior experience with - and it would be a terrible mistake to assume at this point that one has the ability to keep its destructive potential at bay.

Only is one thing is for sure about it, though - there are no genuine healing forces at work on this path. Although it is not uncommon for one to perceive its existence, be weary, for that is only an illusion made to persuade the rational mind against resistance. And the deeper one strays, the more difficult it becomes to turn back.

At the end of the day, the choice still rests upon you, and there is little more we can do except encourage you to think twice. Even if you feel you've already made up your mind - please, just give us a moment to try and appeal to that part of you that is fighting against the desire to continue - though it is a small voice that may not shout as loudly, its message is important and valuable. Don't ignore it.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Read my thread "For everybody here to read <3" & "Before you make that first cut..."

I sincerely hope it helps you think twice about this.

[Scarface]

I'm not going to flood your eyes with "don't do it stop right now it's bad for you" s right now, because you seem to understand that already.

But are you sure? Knowing and understanding are two different things. What does regret look like? That's only an extremely dimmed down scope of what the experience actually feels like. But it usually isn't just regret that plagues the consciousness of a chronic self-harmer - there is so much more involved than barely anyone realizes can even be possible, the moment they make the first cut.

When that door leading down the path of self-destruction is opened, there is no telling what one could encounter along the way. Everything beyond the present moment is in a state of uncertainty - especially powerful forces which one has no prior experience with - and it would be a terrible mistake to assume at this point that one has the ability to keep its destructive potential at bay.

Only is one thing is for sure about it, though - there are no genuine healing forces at work on this path. Although it is not uncommon for one to perceive its existence, be weary, for that is only an illusion made to persuade the rational mind against resistance. And the deeper one strays, the more difficult it becomes to turn back.

At the end of the day, the choice still rests upon you, and there is little more we can do except encourage you to think twice. Even if you feel you've already made up your mind - please, just give us a moment to try and appeal to that part of you that is fighting against the desire to continue - though it is a small voice that may not shout as loudly, its message is important and valuable. Don't ignore it.

maya is on point

[Asylum]

Hun.... your right... we can't make you stop we can only support you, so you can make th e best decision. i know it seems like it's the only option, but it's not... read Aimees two posts, and maya wonderful reply

[Sapphire]

What is the point of you posting here? I mean honestly, what is the point?
You can see the pain, the suffering, the damage to your life that self harm wrecks from this forum and you still want to try it. Not only that, you still want to continue doing it.
There is no point to this thread. You have set your mind on a course of action and have stated that we can't change it. So there is absolutely no point to this thread.

I know I'm going to put some noses out of place saying this but I really don't care.
People with this level of stupidity show complete disregard for the seriousness of self harm. They make a mockery out of all the pain and struggling people go through when they turn to self harm and when they fight to get out of it.

[BeautifulDisaster]

I agree Sapphire.

[Asylum]

i agree with Saphire also, but his point waz venting... he said he needed to get it off his chest.. so i guess that is his point.. . however i do agree with you Saphire

[Lemonlover934]

I know you acknowledge it is wrong, but you can't know the control it takes after a while, it literally dominates you life. Read the "Before you make that first cut..." post, because if it can give you an once of the feeling of what it becomes it should stop you before you fall too deep. PM if you want to talk x

[georgiamay]

What is the point of you posting here? I mean honestly, what is the point?
You can see the pain, the suffering, the damage to your life that self harm wrecks from this forum and you still want to try it. Not only that, you still want to continue doing it.
There is no point to this thread. You have set your mind on a course of action and have stated that we can't change it. So there is absolutely no point to this thread.

I know I'm going to put some noses out of place saying this but I really don't care.
People with this level of stupidity show complete disregard for the seriousness of self harm. They make a mockery out of all the pain and struggling people go through when they turn to self harm and when they fight to get out of it.

i agree. but like magik5 said, i think his point was to just vent...

I think you do need to seriously think about whether you want to carry on. if you read any other thread in this forum, you will see what it does to people's lives. i know it might seem bad now, but if you start self-harming it will get worse. not only will it not help anything in real life, but you will also feel ashamed and hide away from your friends and family, which will just make it even worse. please don't cut again. it might have made you feel better, but it will NOT help with any problems you may have, only make them worse.

read some threads on here, and then you'll see that self-harm is NEVER the way to go. like the ones other people have suggested already.

PM me if you ever need to talk.

[Snake217]

I'm not going to flood your eyes with "don't do it stop right now it's bad for you" s right now, because you seem to understand that already.

But are you sure? Knowing and understanding are two different things. What does regret look like? That's only an extremely dimmed down scope of what the experience actually feels like. But it usually isn't just regret that plagues the consciousness of a chronic self-harmer - there is so much more involved than barely anyone realizes can even be possible, the moment they make the first cut.

When that door leading down the path of self-destruction is opened, there is no telling what one could encounter along the way. Everything beyond the present moment is in a state of uncertainty - especially powerful forces which one has no prior experience with - and it would be a terrible mistake to assume at this point that one has the ability to keep its destructive potential at bay.

Only is one thing is for sure about it, though - there are no genuine healing forces at work on this path. Although it is not uncommon for one to perceive its existence, be weary, for that is only an illusion made to persuade the rational mind against resistance. And the deeper one strays, the more difficult it becomes to turn back.

At the end of the day, the choice still rests upon you, and there is little more we can do except encourage you to think twice. Even if you feel you've already made up your mind - please, just give us a moment to try and appeal to that part of you that is fighting against the desire to continue - though it is a small voice that may not shout as loudly, its message is important and valuable. Don't ignore it.
You couldnt have said things more right, i think ill stop for now.

What is the point of you posting here? I mean honestly, what is the point?
You can see the pain, the suffering, the damage to your life that self harm wrecks from this forum and you still want to try it. Not only that, you still want to continue doing it.
There is no point to this thread. You have set your mind on a course of action and have stated that we can't change it. So there is absolutely no point to this thread.

I know I'm going to put some noses out of place saying this but I really don't care.
People with this level of stupidity show complete disregard for the seriousness of self harm. They make a mockery out of all the pain and struggling people go through when they turn to self harm and when they fight to get out of it.

I came here to get it out of my chest, like many people do in whole VT, so there is a point to my thread, but I do not find a point in your reply, I think you should learn to read threads before answering in a harsh way

[Sapphire]

I came here to get it out of my chest, like many people do in whole VT, so there is a point to my thread, but I do not find a point in your reply, I think you should learn to read threads before answering in a harsh way
Lol. There is a point to my post and the fact that you can't see it further illustrates my point.

Summarised, my point is this: You are stupid for trying it and planning to continue trying it despite being able to see the pain and difficulty that people go through because of it. Your stupidity makes a mockery of this pain and difficulty.

[CuriousDestruction]

Allan, while i support you as a fellow VTer, i cannot support your choice to cut. there are many other options available to you. many alternatives. you are welcome to post here, but don't expect us to be happy for you.

And Sapphire, you know better than i on issues relating to self-harm. but i do know this. first of all, you aren't in Allan's shoes. 2nd, plenty of smart people do stupid things. people all over this forum see the pain and problems of self-harm. yet they choose to do it anyway. they each have their reasons but the reason for this kid is that he needs some relief. as flawed as this logic is to cut, it is his own reasons. i can't call you wrong for your stern attitude towards Allan, but before you jump down his throat again just think about what i said.

[Snake217]

Allan, while i support you as a fellow VTer, i cannot support your choice to cut. there are many other options available to you. many alternatives. you are welcome to post here, but don't expect us to be happy for you.

And Sapphire, you know better than i on issues relating to self-harm. but i do know this. first of all, you aren't in Allan's shoes. 2nd, plenty of smart people do stupid things. people all over this forum see the pain and problems of self-harm. yet they choose to do it anyway. they each have their reasons but the reason for this kid is that he needs some relief. as flawed as this logic is to cut, it is his own reasons. i can't call you wrong for your stern attitude towards Allan, but before you jump down his throat again just think about what i said.

About your first paragraph, Im aware of all that, and I just found an old blade, that is less sharp than a nail, when I feel bad I use it, it doesnt cut, but the pure pain of scratch feels that need, I would really hate my parents to find any trace of blood, so till I get through this crisis I guess ima use that blade, I feel good, and no scar or blood consecuences.

About your second paragraph, thanks for defending me, youre very right, this guy who comes to a forum to call people stupid when he doesnt know what are they going trough, is just looking for attention because he beleives he has the truth of life, yes ive seen other topics in this part of VT, i know the consecuences, but he misunderstood, yes i cutted, yes i said im going to do it again, but that didnt mean I want to cut my wrists or any vital part, nor that I want to end up with many scars or anything, I just found something that covers the mental pains im trough.

Thanks a lot, really

[Sapphire]

And Sapphire, you know better than i on issues relating to self-harm. but i do know this. first of all, you aren't in Allan's shoes. 2nd, plenty of smart people do stupid things. people all over this forum see the pain and problems of self-harm. yet they choose to do it anyway. they each have their reasons but the reason for this kid is that he needs some relief. as flawed as this logic is to cut, it is his own reasons. i can't call you wrong for your stern attitude towards Allan, but before you jump down his throat again just think about what i said.Yes, it is clearly difficult and painful what he is going through. Yes, he needs help. But he should be asking for other ways to gain this relief - not saying "I'm going to do it again and you can't say anything to stop me."
Relief can be gained from many things (good and bad). But this kid is not interested in them. He has found something that will initially work and he doesn't want to hear anymore - even after seeing the complete destruction it causes. I understand doing something irrationally but this is going beyond that.

[Grim981]

I started regretting after the first time i put an inch-wide gap into my thigh. i was in agony for weeks, couldnt get stitches or any help because no-one knew. of course by then it was too late. i couldnt stop. and i started out just like you. now im a wreck.

[PainUnreal]

I'm sorry you had to start this vicious cycle. It's not easy to stop, not easy to come to terms with, not easy for others to accept as reality. I'm not going to say you have to stop, because I know for a fact that it won't help, but try to only when you're ready to try and stop.
As for the girl, she was just plain rude to you. She was being completely insensitive, which wasn't fair to you at all. As hard as it may seem, try to get over it. For every bitch there are so many more nice girls out there that would never even think of doing anything like that to you.