Cody...?

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

9:00pm March 14, 2010 Cody left the party.
9:30Pm March 14, 2010 He was rushed into the OR from a motorcycle wreck, he shattered his shoulder blade, broke 3 ribs, broke one leg..And cracked his skull. He wasn't wearing a helmet.
He went into a coma and was put on Life Support in Intensive Care, The doctors said that if he didn't wake up in 2months it was pointless.
12:30AM March 16, 2010 Cody's parents decide to pull the plug.

The saying: "When We Forget To Cherish Life, The Way God Meant It TO Be. He Has No Choice But To Take It." Keeps playing over and over in my head.

He helped me stop cutting and get over depression, in so many ways..He saved me. And yet..I couldn't save him.

He always drove more carefully when I was with him on the bike, he knew it made me nervous so he'd go slower and be super careful. I was invited to the party, he asked me if i wanted to come..and I told him no, I had other things I needed to do.
I can't help thinking that if I had said yes, how that would have changed the whole night.

Cody's Favorite Song: Come On Get Higher Matt Nathanson I'm going to be singing it March 21st, for the memorial.


I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the rush of your skin
I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water
If i could tell you whats next
Make you believe
Make you forget

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you whats next
Make you believe
Make you forget

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss feeling the pull of your heart
I miss tasting the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils and god when you come on
Hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on....
(sing shaa la la la laa
Ouuu)

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

Come on get high
Loosen my lips
Faith and desire
And the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me
Drown me in love

It's all wrong
It's all wrong
It's all wrong, its so right

Come on get higher
Come on and get higher
Because everything works love
Because everything works in your arms

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atmh1p6pNQk

[Peace God]

sorry to hear that man...stay up

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

sorry to hear that man...stay up

Thanks.

[Asylum]

i am so sorry for your loss.... you PM me if you need somoen to tlak to, i'm here for you. i think it's very brave of you to sing that at his memorial. its really hard but your going to sing for him.... that is amazing man... like seirously... it will mean a lto to you, to him, and to everyone that you ar signing this..
it is not your fault that he died... you couldn't have prevented it. do not blame yourself. it was his time to go... everything happens for a reason... although we do nto know the reason it happens... everything has a reason and a purpsoe there is a reason for all of this... do not blame God either. sorry for going all religious i don't kno if you are relgious, if you were atheist this may not have helped at all but maybe angered or offended you, and if it did, i am very sorry... these are just my words trying to comfort... nto trying to spark a relgious debate or anything... think of it as he is in a better place no longer suffering. and he will always be with you in spirit... if you are atheist i really have no words comforting about death other then he is no longer in pain... i'm sorry for brinigng up the topic of religion... it's a bad conversation topic,especially with someone you don't really know, but i hope to comforts you in your time of grieving.... again i'm very sorry for your loss and you can always PM me if you need or want to talk, i'm always here

[Nelson]

So sorry man, Just remember all the good times you had together

[Fvantom]

man, I can only imagine what youre going through, Ive never lost a friend but just the thought is unbearable.

Dont blame yourself though, it sounds like you guys were good friends, and the last thing he would want is for you to feel like you caused his death.

Im sorry for your loss, send a PM if you need anyone to talk to

[TAC1]

Hey, I know how you feel. Dont ever forget him...just remember all the good times you had..and don't blame yourself. If you want to you can always pm me for any more advice or to comfort you in your loss..

[BuryYourFlame]

Keep in mind that there are plenty of people to talk to. School counselors, parents, friends, a therapist if you feel the need and even plenty of people on here though they may not be able to help as much. All these people would be willing to talk to you and want the best for you, don't forget about them.

Good luck. =]

[Scarface]

Wow man my heart and my thoughts go with you and Cody's family. I am so sorry that this has happened to you and i want to let you know that I will be a shoulder for you to cry on if you need it. I will be the one that will stay up all night with you if you need someone to talk to. ill be there for you until you you feel better. i have actually teared up because i had a similar event happen to me and i know exactly how you feel. All the what if's and what if i did. Just know that he is a better place and you and him will reunite once again. Just remember all the good times you had with him and cherish them for a lifetime. I know the pain you have to be undergoing and i can only remember being a mush pit when it happened to me. I want to let you know that Im going to be there for you during this and when you need someone ill be there to say everything's gonna be okay. That is one beautiful song to sing and i know you will do great. PM me anytime

[CuriousDestruction]

i'm so sorry for your loss.

[TakeMyHand]

It's very sad what happened but just make sure you don't start blaming yourself. You didn't do anything wrong and I'm sure he wouldn't want you to blame yourself for what happened.

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

Thank you, to everyone. I never really planned for this to have more then like 2 people reply. But you guys took the time to read and reply and that means alot to me, and I think it'd mean alot to Cody.
I'm still upset about Cody dying, but I'm not going to be hum-glum, because he never was and he wouldn't want me to be.
I'm still nervous about singing, but I will do it.

[Zephyr]

The loss of a friend is always very hard.

I was the last person to see my friend Stephen before he committed suicide, and it still kills me to this day that I didn't follow his truck up into the woods when I saw him on that back road.

The 'should have's' always play out in your mind, you may feel as if you could have changed the course of actions, but in reality it is what it is; Take the proper time to celebrate his life and memory, spend some time mourning his death as it's perfectly healthy to do so, and things will start to settle back down.

Remember the good times and all of the wonderful ways in which he changed your life. Remembering may seem depressing to do, but it does help in the long run hun.

:hug:

[Shadoukun]

I'm very sorry for your loss. I wish I could be more consoling than that.