Sadness...

[ltimm]

So, I took a personality test and it said that I most likely have Borderline Personality Disorder. Here are the signs:

Impulsive and risky behavior, such as risky driving, unsafe sex, gambling sprees or taking illicit drugs
Strong emotions that wax and wane frequently
Intense but short episodes of anxiety or depression
Inappropriate anger, sometimes escalating into physical confrontations
Difficulty controlling emotions or impulses
Suicidal behavior
Fear of being alone

I agree with pretty much everyone except the first and second one and half of 5 and 7. One minute I'll be happy, then something won't happen, then I'll get severely depressed. Then, something nice will happen and I'll be happen and chiper!

It also said that I was dependent and paranoid. I can't stand to lose the people i love even if it's only for a day or two (especially my mother). I was always very attached to my mother but since my dad died 3 years ago, that attachment has grown stronger. Every time she leaves, I always think the worst might happen. At night, I'll just think about what could happen. Then I'll start crying and getting myself all worked up over basically nothing. Basically, I have a strong attachment to anybody I meet. If something bad happens to that person, then I'll get upset.

I also have this weird thing happen to me. If my mother or someone wanted me to do something a long time ago and I forget, I'll get very upset to the point of crying. Or something that I lost years ago, then find it. I fell like I lost a part of my life that I can;t get back.

Or I'll even cry in intense happiness. Just the other day it was warm out for the first time since November, and for some reason, I was overcome with joy and started to cry. I geuss I was just sick of the cold XD.

At school, I'm much of a loner, yet alot of people talk to me. I like to keep to myself. Although, people who I know personally I feel I need to be around them.


Well, If you have any suggestions for why this is, or what I can do to help it, I would greatly appreciate it.

[BeautifulDisaster]

At 15, no one will diagnose you with BPD, and bare in mind, IT'S AN ONLINE TEST, do NOT self diagnose or take these tests seriously, they are not done by professionals and you need to be assessed by one to be diagnosed with a PD, which again, no one will at 15 as you're under 18 and you're still developing.

See a professional for the SYMPTOMS you have, with or without a diagnosis, you need to treat the symptoms, having a label of BPD won't help because there is a lot of stigma attached to BPD and it's very shitty.

To be honest, it doesn't sound like you have it, it sounds like some events in your life have triggered this off, and you're also a teenager, hormones, mood swings, etc are happening to you at this age.
And being attached to your mother, even more so after your father passed away, is completely normal.
And it's also normal to feel upset when thinking of bad things happening to people you care about; it's called having feelings and being a good friend.

You sound pretty normal to me, but if you feel concerned about this, I'd see a professional.

[Asylum]

i agree 100% with Aimee, hun, go to a professional... not only can they properly diagnos you, but thye can get you the help you need. and if you do have BPD, then you should definately seek help, it's the only way to get better. what's there to lose but getting better, you don't want to be stuck do you with those feelings? i know i woulnd't... only way to get out of those BPD feeligns is seeking help. i know getting help is scary, but you can get through it we are here to help you through it. and it's better safe then sorry right? why self diagnos? alright... you say you have BPD... now what? you must seek help that is what... because if you dn't it could get worse, and we want to see you get better i you do have it. it's b etter safe then sorry so go to a professional especially since you are questioning yourself having it. i'm here if you ever want to talk PM me anytime. hope thigns get better for you :D

[CuriousDestruction]

seeing a therapist or psychiatrist can help you deal or treat this type of thing. seek help.

[ltimm]

I've thought about it, and I don't think I have Borderline. But, If these fellings continue, then I'll go see a therapist.

I cry like every night

[vrchards]

ltimm
Don't think that you have any thing. you are as same like others human being. sadness is nothing, it is just our though that I am sad. I am sharing my fealings when my girl frend left me that time I was feeling very sorrow and decide to suicide also. but one of my uncle told that what you have lost?are you born with her? No.
then why are you feeling sorrow. Just begin your new journy, may be some one waiting.Go ahead and never feel sad for any thing. God alwyays does good for us. Now I am Very happy with my wife and if i had done the suicide then how should i met with my wife.So Don't give any room for sadness in your life. Each and every moment just try to enjoy.

[wiliamjoan]

I would say at least see a psychiatrist first. They may refer you to intensive therapy sessions, where they will help you alter your thinking into more positive ways.

There is no cure. It takes a lot of effort to start leading a more normal life. There may be some medications to decrease your anxiety from time to time. What is important is that you think there is something wrong, and you want to fix it. cases have been known to reverse and recover under years of psychotherapy. Medication is not necessarily prescribed. Talking therapy helps the patient explore their thinking and corrects it with new and healthy responses.

There is only one big problem...most people don't want to change their personalities and re-learn how to respond to life's situations appropriately.

[ltimm]

I think this has passed though, cause I haven't thought about it in a few days. YAY ME!! :D