zombieland
March 15th, 2010, 11:26 AM
hello,
I'm 19, and have recently been having strange thoughts about being gay, it's making me feel pretty confused and getting me down a bit. However i've spent some time looking at guys and that and i don't feel attracted to them or have any physical desires towards them, i don't even think i could kiss another man, i have always fancied and done sexual things with girls ever since i was about 13 or 14, i lost my virginity to a girl when i was 17 and then had a dry spell until mid last year when i got together with a female colleague and then started to get more experience intercourse wise. But since the relationship ended i have kind of lost my libido towards girls although i still feel attracted to them when i think about screwing them i sometimes get really turned on but other times i don't, even some physical contact with girls gives me a hard on but i still can't seem to shake these thoughts. I have been smoking weed every single day for the past five years up until about two weeks ago when i decided to jack it in, and I think it may have fucked my head over a bit. i get thoughts about being gay pop into my head and although i feel straight and still feel attracted to women, sometimes these gay thoughts turn me on, , iv watched gay porn before and it has turned me on. It's making me feel like if i got to a stage where i could have sex with a girl again these thoughts would affect my performance (if you know what i mean) im pretty shy towards women anyway and im insecure about my looks and things so i don't really know what to make of all this, I havn't met any girls recently who really 'WOW' me and these thoughts are really starting to scare me, i have no problem with gays at all but i don't want to be gay. What is going on? am i turning gay or have i just lost my libido? (sorry about the essay). Any advice would be appreciated, thanks.
I'm 19, and have recently been having strange thoughts about being gay, it's making me feel pretty confused and getting me down a bit. However i've spent some time looking at guys and that and i don't feel attracted to them or have any physical desires towards them, i don't even think i could kiss another man, i have always fancied and done sexual things with girls ever since i was about 13 or 14, i lost my virginity to a girl when i was 17 and then had a dry spell until mid last year when i got together with a female colleague and then started to get more experience intercourse wise. But since the relationship ended i have kind of lost my libido towards girls although i still feel attracted to them when i think about screwing them i sometimes get really turned on but other times i don't, even some physical contact with girls gives me a hard on but i still can't seem to shake these thoughts. I have been smoking weed every single day for the past five years up until about two weeks ago when i decided to jack it in, and I think it may have fucked my head over a bit. i get thoughts about being gay pop into my head and although i feel straight and still feel attracted to women, sometimes these gay thoughts turn me on, , iv watched gay porn before and it has turned me on. It's making me feel like if i got to a stage where i could have sex with a girl again these thoughts would affect my performance (if you know what i mean) im pretty shy towards women anyway and im insecure about my looks and things so i don't really know what to make of all this, I havn't met any girls recently who really 'WOW' me and these thoughts are really starting to scare me, i have no problem with gays at all but i don't want to be gay. What is going on? am i turning gay or have i just lost my libido? (sorry about the essay). Any advice would be appreciated, thanks.