Difficult childhood and sexually abused?

[Sapphire]

Have you had a difficult childhood and been sexually abused?
If so, do you find yourself using sex or sexual activities to degrade yourself or someone of the same sex to you?

I've come to realise that my choice of scenario in erotica and my approach to engaging in sexual activities with others stem from my own feelings of inferiority, shame and self criticism.
I seem to be using a very natural thing to strengthen the negative feelings I direct towards myself.

[Asylum]

difficult childhool, and sexually abused
no i don't find that i do that.

[Magus]

Since we got it right.

Yes I do unfortunately.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Difficult childhood & sexual abuse/molest, also sexual assaults/harassment.

I'm not quite sure I understand your question though.
Elaborate?

[Sapphire]

Sorry, I'll try to reword it.
Do you use sex/sexual activities with another person to degrade yourself? Do you use sexual activities on your own (videos/photos/stories/fantasies) to degrade yourself or someone similar to you?

[BeautifulDisaster]

I have rape fantasies, so would that count as degrading myself?

[Sapphire]

That is a degrading fantasy so I would say yes.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Okay, then my answer is yes.

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[soniyajack]

I have been a victim of sexual abuse from a male. This has nothing to do with my sexuality. Honestly before that even happened when I look back on it I always had crushes on my best friends who were female. You can use the Bible to say the homosexuality is wrong, but you can use the Bible to defend it just as easily.

[deadpie]

My experiences have gave me many mixed feelings about any form of sex. Somedays I feel like I need it, and that I have to have it because it's all I was ever made for, and other days I hate the idea that people are connected by this thing when it was the thing that ruined my life.
I saw allot of fucked up things in my childhood, and I think that's why I have such a violent and sexual mind. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I feel like one day I won't have a choice and I will have to carry out what they did to me. It's confusing to explain.

[sarahkennedy685]

I totally use sex to degrade myself....I get off on it. I was abused sexually when i was quite small and I remember a lot of it! I was around 6 and he was very rough and he took pictures etc.

Today that translates into wanting punishment. I dotn know why, I dont really care! I just like to be degraded. I cant enjoy sex any other way.

I'm bi, but with both girls and boys, I like it to hurt and I like it to be fucked up.

[Hanyo]

I have been a victim of sexual abuse from a male. This has nothing to do with my sexuality. Honestly before that even happened when I look back on it I always had crushes on my best friends who were female. You can use the Bible to say the homosexuality is wrong, but you can use the Bible to defend it just as easily.


I'm sorry you were abused, that's terrible :'(

Don't mean to get off topic, but I'm curious... how can you use the Bible to defend homosexuality? God's position on that subject is quite clear in the Bible.

[BlackBetty]

No, I have never had anything like this to happen to me.

But I do remember, when I was VERY young and at the pediatrcians for a visit, there was this little girl there. She had been sexually abused, and the whole office was so out of sorts because of it. I remember walking across the hall to go there and talk to her, and see what was going on with her. They told me to leave, and then gave her a teddy bear to cling to.

I will always remember that, because that is something that has somehow impacted my life.

[georgiamay]

i had a difficult childhood, but i don't believe i was sexually abused.
i do sometimes use sex and sexual activity to degrade myself. i'm a virgin and everything, but i have let a guy touch me in a way that made me feel uncomfortable, but i never stop them or anything. i really didn't like it, but i didn't want it to stop. how sick is that? :l

[The Batman]

The way I was raised was to listen first, don't talk back, and if you did you wouldn't again. I'm still trying to piece together ages 5-7 since most of it is pretty much gone. However, I do remember having some type of sexual activity when I was 5 years old and maybe more in that time frame. I'm really screwed up sexually though, I think the act is horrible and disgusting yet when I'm bored I look at porn, when I'm happy I look at porn, and when I'm feeling anything else I look at porn. Most of my sexual fantasies are of fulfilling someone else's needs infact my first actual experience that I did as a teen was more of doing what he wanted. I use to be awkward around certain adults starting at the time I was 14 or 15 and the only thing I could think of ending it was by giving them some sort of sexual favor to make them happy. I do believe that my childhood has some how made me the sexually fucked up person I am.

[1_21Guns]

i did have a pretty difficult childhood. which in turn did cause me to treat people the way i shouldnt.
as for the sexual abuse. i dont know. i dont remember.
but there are little things that point to the possiblility.
so yeah. it has kinda had a knock on effect.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

I was raped at 6 at fam party by uncle for 30 min parents were in living room didnt notice i was gone after we left i felt cold, lonely, confused, scared, and sad. He told me not to tell or else he would kill my parents he said it will be a fun game he stripped me to y underwear shirt around my neck, he masturbated infront of me, licked my groin and paralized me. I have nightmares about it today, and cant type or even THINK about the rest, but, i do masturbate bcs i think im a worthless human and ive never been respected before so, and i also masturbate to try and over rule the neg feeling with a pos feeling, so yah