drifter
March 13th, 2010, 08:37 PM
I apologize if this gets rather long, but I have a lot on my mind... thanks.
So, last year, I met the first girl that I truly fell in love with. Everything was wonderful. Everything. We were so alike in so many ways.. we'd constantly complete each other's sentences .. everything. We were so happy and in love. A few months into it, things turned sexual. Shortly after that, her parents found out. Now, both of our parents are extremely conservative (the opposite of me) and were outraged. We weren't aloud to be "together" anymore, but we still saw each other. We were still so in love, but we hid it well. We would contact each other constantly behind their backs, and we got good at it... Until a few weeks ago when our parents checked the phone records and found out. They were beyond angry. We were never aloud to be in contact again. Honestly, it killed me. But, I never thought to doubt her.. I didn't think she would give up. Well, it seems as if she has. Shortly after we got caught, I'd sneak calls to her from a payphone. We'd tell each other how we weren't going to give up. And how we'd do it all over again if we had to. I felt so comforted knowing I had her, after all that we've been through. Well, a few weeks into calling from the payphone, she stopped answering my calls. I've left her voicemails asking her to pick up, but she won't. She literally has done this without any reason. I am beyond confused. The last thing she said was... "baby, I'd do this all over again if it meant knowing you. Don't worry about losing me." After that phone call, I heard nothing from her... and it SCARES me. I don't know what to do. Should I give up? This one person has been my WORLD for the last year and a half, and I feel lost without her. I'm so upset and I'd love any advice you could give me.
(FYI she is 16. I'm 17.)
If anyone read this from the top to bottom, thank you so much. It means a ton to me.
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So, last year, I met the first girl that I truly fell in love with. Everything was wonderful. Everything. We were so alike in so many ways.. we'd constantly complete each other's sentences .. everything. We were so happy and in love. A few months into it, things turned sexual. Shortly after that, her parents found out. Now, both of our parents are extremely conservative (the opposite of me) and were outraged. We weren't aloud to be "together" anymore, but we still saw each other. We were still so in love, but we hid it well. We would contact each other constantly behind their backs, and we got good at it... Until a few weeks ago when our parents checked the phone records and found out. They were beyond angry. We were never aloud to be in contact again. Honestly, it killed me. But, I never thought to doubt her.. I didn't think she would give up. Well, it seems as if she has. Shortly after we got caught, I'd sneak calls to her from a payphone. We'd tell each other how we weren't going to give up. And how we'd do it all over again if we had to. I felt so comforted knowing I had her, after all that we've been through. Well, a few weeks into calling from the payphone, she stopped answering my calls. I've left her voicemails asking her to pick up, but she won't. She literally has done this without any reason. I am beyond confused. The last thing she said was... "baby, I'd do this all over again if it meant knowing you. Don't worry about losing me." After that phone call, I heard nothing from her... and it SCARES me. I don't know what to do. Should I give up? This one person has been my WORLD for the last year and a half, and I feel lost without her. I'm so upset and I'd love any advice you could give me.
(FYI she is 16. I'm 17.)
If anyone read this from the top to bottom, thank you so much. It means a ton to me.
x