I cut in school.

[dstnyisurs]

I know I'm out of control now.
I cut, the first time I had cut in school, because I got really really anxious and fucked up. This friend of mine is really depressed and really bipolar, and I'm one of his closest friends, and he gave me his journal to read... and just reading it and the letter he wrote me in it, I got so fucked up and anxious. I was happy for him because he was happy and felt relieved and unburdened, but as soon as I got back from giving him a hug at lunch, I put my head down, blasted my iPod and couldn't stop shaking.
I went to the bathroom, and locked myself in a stall and cut, three times, really really deep. The one on my wrist started opening up again and bleeding a little while ago. I think I nicked a vien.
I thought about throwing up too, just to, I don't know, do something more, but I had nothing in my stomach to begin with for throwing up.
I was in a really anxious, screwed up mood, and was punching lockers and snapping at people and I nearly punched my friend Jon.
It was frightening. I'm still in that anxious mood, though a little more calm because a few other friends came over and we watched a movie, and I got a chance to talk with another close friend.
Everything just feels wrong. I had sex with someone yesterday, and it was fabulous but I just feel so used. I cut last night too, and coudln't sleep.
This is really dangerous because I'm going to church camp this weekend, and I can't risk getting caught if I get out of control and cut, but I can't force myself to leave my knife behind.
This is some of the scariest mania I've ever experienced. I don't know what to do.

[BeautifulDisaster]

If you hit a vein, it would have been squirting out for a long time, and it'd be a much deeper shade of red, if it was, then you need stitches.
You may have also caused nerve damage if it was that deep.
Even if you haven't cut a vein, get them checked out, they may need steri-strips if not stitches, or just a general clean up.

See someone, a professional, a counselor, you need help, so get it.

[Seeker94]

There are people here for you like me. If you need to talk I can always talk to you. But go to the doctor or something to get the cuts cleaned and checked out. Just if you must continue talk to someone and be very very careful.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

You need help Hun. you have found yourself in a situation you cannot handle. you want to but you can't. you feel panicked and trapped now and your working yourself up more. the longer you let this go on the worse it will get, get help asap and stop this before it becomes worse and harder to deal with. if you need to talk pm me.

[Asylum]

hun, the truth is you need to get help.. u know it too.. it's hard gettng help, even scary, but you can't go on like this. there is light at the end of the tunnel, an end. the real question is do you wnat it to end? wanting it to end is the first step in stopping... if yoou don't stop it will get worse... by the sounds of it the only way you can stop is with some help. pm me if you ever need anything

[ShatteredWings]

I was cutting in school a few months ago. no bandages either, so cuts were just being left open under clothes

you need to get back in control. talk to anyone. someone needs to know what's going on.

maybe give your blade to someone, so you can't take it to school.
or leave it somewhere specififc at home so you *know* where it is but cant use it while youre out.

[CuriousDestruction]

you sound like you are in very bad shape hun. i hope you have a counselor or therapist to talk to. PM me if you wanna talk.

[Syvelocin]

I did today too :( Though I was an entire idiot. My teacher snapped at me and this other crap, just kept getting on my nerves, and I don't know, I stuck my arm in my bag and did some shallow slits in my wrist. One bled even more, and it ended up to be still bleeding when the bell rang. It was incredibly awkward, as my teacher was watching me as I quickly stuffed my bleeding wrist into my pocket and attempted to zip up my bag with one hand. I was the last one there, and she just kept on staring at me. o.O Don't take away the razor, but leaving it at home would help keep you from cutting at school. Though all I'm worried about is wanting to, being desperate and being without your razors. Horrible situation. That only leads to worse measures. Talk to someone, and best wishes.

[Fiction]

I am not a cutter but i have bruised at school and scratched myself ... with whatever i could get hold of because its hard to take hair straightners to school to burn with.

[HeroesAndCons]

awwww if u need to ever talk pm me